You're Holding My Heart? || Noco || TDI {Total Drama Island} ||

Out for injury

Btw that gacha video is amazing go watch it.
Tw: Panic attack, hallucinations.

ust a reminder as alot of people don't know about the "tea" idea, unconscious people dont want tea. | (g)rape |

I should probably point our that my cody is slightly autistic, he dosent understand everything noahs idiot sarcasm says ect.
Cody is also a joy eater with a ED which makes him only eat small things, Anorexia (I think) + we can't forget about the adhd

Noahs autistic aswell he's just a different type, he's silent, as somebody who has autism and I just don't really talk, I relate to noah. And we also can't forget depression. Yayy

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'Where am I..?'
'Katie's here..'
'I don't know her so well but she seems so kind..'

"Katie? Where am I?" I asked, it came out slightly muffled? And I was aching all over, it seemed like a hospital..
"Cody!? Your awake!" She said, I knew her, she knew me but I didn't think she'd care that much about me waking up from sleeping..

"Wasn't I just.. sleeping-?" I confusedly asked

"Cody.. you've been asleep for 4 days.." She mumbled, obviously she didn't want to tell me but with a reaction like that you really just got to tell me.

"WHAT!?" I yelled out, I had been sleeping for four days.. I remeber now.. I got attacked by a b-bear.. everything still was now swirling round and round as I remembered the attack, I couldn't help it, I was hyperventilating and tears streamed down my face, my body seemed to shut down I couldn't move at all I couldn't stop, it hurt
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Help?
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Please..?

I still couldn't move I just curled up in a ball uncontrollably crying.
It felt as if I was in a black void with nothing I felt calm in this weird place, until.. well.. it looked like Heather? But she was crying and said, ", bye Cody."
I just started yelling for her to come back as she faded but then Katie snapped me out of it

"CODY!? CODY HELLO!? EARTH TO CODY!" She said
"..." I just snapped out of it and shuffled away "I'm sorry Katie.." I sighed
"It's okay cody just calm down, I've gotta go now I think you have another visitor outside.." She said and got up then walked out

I saw noah through the glass on the door, he actually knocked, pretty polite for noah.. "come in!" I said cheerfully(Faker) as noah walked in and sat on the little stool,

"Sorry for making you cry cody" I just slightly heard him mumble,
"It's okay!" I hummed,
"Thank god.. we're sharing a room as well, you should just check in at the front desk they'll know your with me." Noah said, he was actually being genuine..

"Okay thanks.." I replied
"What happened though I blacked out after Heaths carried me somewhere..

"Oh yeah Heather took you too Chris and Chris sent you here as you were deemed unfit to participate in challenges," He said, he was staring at me for some reason,
"And yeah that's basically what happened.."
"Huh..? Oh yeah!"
"Cody were you listening?"
"Uh.. heh.. yup totally!"
"It's okay if you weren-"
'Ding!'
'Ding!'
The clock chimed, it was twelve AM!
"The snack bars open now, do you want me to get you something from it?"
"Just get me something very sweet please," I requested with a grin on my face
"You know you look stupid with that grin!" Noah laughed and walked out
I-I don't know what it was but I really enjoyed having a conversation with noah.. it didn't feel akward like it always does with new people, was it because we knew eachothers names and some hobbys already? Or was it something else I couldn't quite place my finger on.

The door clicked open and noah returned with a chocolate cake slice that looked delicious and a coffee
"I got you a slice of chocolate cake," He said
He smiled and could probably see my face, I felt like I was physically glowing, I hadn't had any cake since I was 7!

(Codys broke ass and abusive parents just slowly come into scene, OKAY FINE THIS IS THE LAST TIME I MAKE A JOKEEE)

"Mmm.." I took a bite of the cake and smiled,
"Cody, its just cake what's so good about it?"
"I love cake and I haven't had any since I was 7!"
"Really!? You seem like you eat cake everyday."
"Nope, I'm too poor to eat cake everyday!"
"I was being sarcastic idiot.."
"Okay!" I was to indulged in cake to even listen to him, his voice was pretty though
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Do I know him from some where?
I think I do.. I cant remember.. oh well!

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"Erhm.. excuse me sir? Visiting times up.." said a nurse looking figure from the doorway
"Oh okay ma'am" noah said offaly quiet compared on how he was talking to me..
'Did I do something wrong?' I thought to myself, it was probably nothing..

(I know I promised to stop but cody's either confused about it or in denial, your pick although they will both come up eventually,)

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I fell asleep again great.. in my view I saw my phone that had been confiscated by Chris' Camera crew or something? It mightve been interns.. there was a note on top.. I quickly clicked the lamp on so I could read the small writing
'Were really not supposed to do this but your phone was blowing up so here you go,
Ps, destroy this note.
-interns'

I flicked my phone on and saw alot of mixed messages from Sierra my.. parents and.. GRAMMA!? She finally can use a phone now I can talk to her again yes!!

I decided to pick up my parents first as they were still spam calling me,
"Hel-" I could barely get a peep out when they immediately started screaming and yelling over the phone that I was so dead when I get home because I didn't win the money, I was honestly frightened this would happen but I couldn't tell them I knew they would or that I was in a luxury hotel, I just quickly hung up and blocked them, shove my phone in my bag and fell back into a sleep.

(A quick noah pov shall we? I mean, I've got time lmao, btw we've made it apparent that noah loves cody right? Good.)

|Noahs pov|
I walked into the infirmary and saw cody still dozing away, his hair was covering his face so I brushed it out the way and he just smiled in his sleep! I turned red, he was too cute I couldn't wake him up right then and there could I??? No..

"Still sleeping Ma'am," I said to the 2nd nurse still working at the infirmary and walked away, I cleaned up the room as Eva had gotten a room with izzy, I can see them getting togther in the future 100% no doubt about it, but as I was cleaning up i saw The knife..

(SH TW)
I just picked it up and rolled my sleeve down the floor was hard wood, it wouldn't stain dark spruce wood? I didn't care, I kept slicing my wrists with the pocket knife I couldn't stop, it was so reliving to me.. the white scars off my old ones were becoming painted with my blood again, I couldn't stop I was to far In to now.

When I finally stopped I just saw the drops of blood slide down my wrists and drop to the ground the splatters of the blood made me feel so unexplainably happy, is happiness supposed to hurt? I didn't know, I didnt care.

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I felt bad about a death situation cliffhanger so I gave you a less death threatening one so yah-

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