You're Holding My Heart? || Noco || TDI {Total Drama Island} ||

"Hey thats bad for you!"

You get a double pov, CONSIDER YOURSELF LUCKY.. (BTW THAT PROB MEANS THIS CHAP WILL BE LIKE 2000 WORDS LMAO) btw the song is so good
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| NOAHS POV <33 |

|another TW of self harm,|

I woke up way before Cody, I didnt sleep the night before, I stayed up reading books, there was this really good book about a pansexual guy figuring out his love life and identity, it was great reading it. (COUGH COUGH My genderfluid fruity ass COUGH COUGH)

I got up and went into the shower, yesterday my wrists hurt alot with all the soap running into healing scabs, I got out and got ready in a pretty casual outfit, but something felt weird, I just sat looking at myself in the bathroom mirror and looking at my wrists, the doors were locked and Cody was still sleeping.. nobody would know right?

I grabbed the pocket knife I always kept on me out of my pocket and continued to slice the scabs on my wrists revealing the fresh blood that would just splat on the porcelain sink, it felt nice and made me happy, I don't know why.

When it finally stopped bleeding I felt as bad as I did before but.. its too late, but I knew it couldn't continue forever.

I heard cody groggily get up and hurried to wash my wrists, and let the sink clean, however, my arms started to bleed again under the water. I had some bandages left but not nearly enough to stop the bleeding so I had to take my hoodie shove on an under-shirt just incase my sleeves went up as they have before,

"Noah..? You done in there yet..?" I could hear Cody say tiredly, I looked around in a panic making sure there qas no blood of evidence of my blood, there was only a little on the knife so I just shoved it into my pocket,
"Uh- yup.

I unlocked the door and walked out,
"Thanks dude.." Cody said locking the door, I heard the shower so I decided to head our, I wrote a note just incase something happened; like one of his wounds burst open.
(The note noah wrote,)

'If something injury related happens while I'm outside go to Owens room, --- if he's not there go to the rooftop I'll be there

-Noah'

(Listening to, Two birds on wire while writing this, I love it sm)

I walked out, and clicked the elevator to go up, I pressed the R (roof) button and waited for a minute,
'Ding!'
Finally, I'm here, I got out and, even though I'm not proud of this habit

| Another TW: Cigarettes (Add!ct!on ig) |

I slowly walked past everything on the roof, it was still early, nobody was here yet, the air was crisp and fresh but I was about to ruin that. I sat up on the edge and lit a cigarette I grabbed from my back pocket, I breathed the smoke out my mouth, it still felt whatsoever peaceful, I was a wet windy morning but the sun was starting to have a light warmth to it.

I threw the cigarette in the puddle of water next to me to put it out.

(BTW NOAH IS A CRIMINAL NOW LMAO)

I turned around to see Cody standing at the door to the roof,
"Hey! Noah! That's Bad for you!"
"I know." I replied,
"Then why do you do it." He kept questioning me,
"I don't know Cody, maybe they just make me feel better."