Can you please fix me?

Getting Ready

Begrudgingly Carina walked out of the room even though that every bone in her body was screaming for her to go back there and make sure that Maya would sleep the night peacefully, but she needed to learn how to deal with her separation anxiety with little Maya, because the daycare is opening soon.

Carina woke up earlier than usual and after turning off the alarm she looked down at the little blonde that was cuddling her side.

Maya had come back late last night after a busy 48-hour shift, and when she came home she barely had the energy to reach their bedroom before laying next to Carina and passing out, the Italian hat to change her clothes and she kept whining until Carina gave her the pacifier to calm her down enough to get her into a diaper and a onesie.

She took the few pieces of hair that covered the blonde's face and tucked it behind her ear revealing her face. Carina always thought that Maya looked more relaxed and carefree in her sleep because she didn't have her I am Maya Bishop face or that little frown between her eyebrows. Since they began dating and even after getting married she only saw that face on the rare occasions when Maya was at peace, but now she sews it more often in little Maya.

She looked at her phone to see that she had an hour before her shift started, she wanted to wake up Maya so she could feed and play with her and get her in a better mood because today was her first day at the daycare and she didn't want Maya to have a bad experience because she was cranky and in a bad mood.

Carina gently pulled the pacifier out of Maya's mouth causing the little to whine "Wake up Bambina" she whispered stroking her cheek.

"No, I tired, mo seepies" Maya whined, burying her face in her Mama's neck and latching on the exposed skin.

Carina sat up against the headboard and pulled Maya to sit on her lap, who immediately laid her head on Carina's shoulder, and continued her suckling "Wake up baby" she said patting the littles butt.

"I don wanna" Maya mumbled against her skin.

"Come on sleepyhead we have a long day ahead of us" she said, sitting up and walking to the nursery after some difficulty she managed to change Maya's diaper and put her into a baby vest.

She picked her up and took her to the rocking chair she sat with the little on her lap, she rocked the chair and hummed waiting for Maya to wake up a little bit so she could feed her without the little falling back asleep.

"Mama" the little said tugging on Carina's top.

"Alright alright" Carina said unbuttoning her sleep shirt and unclasping her nursing bra.

Maya latched on immediately, and began sucking the brunette's nipple hungrily "Easy Bambina" Carina winced and the little blonde slowed down into a rhythm of gentle suckles.

Once the little was fed and burped Carina walked to the kitchen with Maya in her arms who had gone into a milk-drunk state and couldn't walk or sit up straight, Carina started to prepare Maya's lunch bag she didn't know what headspace would Maya be in and maybe her anxiety took the better of her and decided to pack something for each headspace she might be in.

She packed a sandwich if she felt really big and could feed herself, and homemade baby food with some crackers and fruits, if she felt a little younger, she also packed two sippy cups, one she filled up with water, and the other one went orange juice and a baby bottle with an extra bag of breast milk for before her nap, and if she would slip into her infant headspace, which she sometimes do if she was excited, anxious and nervous about something or really tired.

When she finished packing the lunch bag she sat Maya on the kitchen counter, but the little didn't move. She was laying on her Mama's shoulder and had her arms circled around her neck and her legs locked so she wouldn't go "Maya, Bambina" she said and when the little lifted her head she added "Can you go and pack your toy bag?"