These feelings I cannot control
Over me it goes if I'm right I don't know
Deep inside I feel sadness
From the light I knew stays darkness
I am unsure what to do how to continue
Why did we end up here?
The hurt inside me it won't leave
I wish I didn't know and didn't see
The things they told me
These short words and sentences
Make me doubt and slowly crumble apart
A uncontrollable feeling deep in the heart
Stabbing of insecurity
Why did you stand there?
Why did such a thing have to happen?
I have been too blind to the reality
I continued hoping it wasn't like this
I wasn't there, I don't know the truth
I cannot loathe in self pity or do anything
Helpless I am staying, wondering, shaking
I cannot bottle it up and pretend nothing happened
I can't break it up and carry on
You act as if nothing happened at all
I don't know how to act, I think I might fall
The hurt is stabbing my heart the more i think
My thoughts won't leave me alone
I stand on the brink of something maybe not real
These people's opinions are too different
My brain won't stop wondering, heart won't stop hurting
Why can't you realize?
How can I say this?
The thoughts don't leave my head
I cannot stop it, I have to say what's on my mind
Even if it ends up breaking
Even if these feelings end up leaking
I can't hold it in any longer
I'm prone to insecurity
If I believe it's safe and secure
And something breaks my trust
I don't know what I must
Thoughts won't stop racing
Insecure obsessive thoughts
No matter how much I have grown
Some things don't change
I need to speak and tell them
It's the only way I can remain calm
I don't want to lose it this time
There has to be a better way
I have to establish boundaries
Anything else comes secondary
I wish to stop overthinking forever
End it forever continue never
No matter how far I've gone
Something's don't change
In my bubble it's where I live
It's where my love I give
And when my world gets shaken
Insecurity breaks in
I don't want to regret my actions
It's why I look for distractions
Often excusing, refusing to believe
Tell me the reality before I lose my sanity
Waiting, hurting, silent,
Awaiting your response
Will you understand? What will you think?
These words you told me all the time
And now I wonder if they were even true
Do I truly know you or am I mistaken?
Will I end up completed or shaken?
I have to speak before I break
Hope you won't hate me for other's mistake
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Red Roses and Black Crows
PoetryThe red blood of what we fought, the tears and the hard work crumbled apart, and the ashes of rebirth. Red rose, the love and passion, and the black crows of freedom and change, we had to break apart and transform, to become who we are today. And th...
