Is it okay to fall in love again?
I would like to, but after what happened in the past... Nah, I'm fine being single.
Why is falling in love so traumatic? What if I meet that kind of person again? What if I hurt them again? What if I become the bad person again? What if they lie again?
I would like to list all my "what ifs," but it will be a long essay.
Do I really deserve to be loved? It's weird that I easily crush on someone but never want to be in a relationship with them.
My friend always says, "Why don't you take a shot?" Dude, I'm so afraid to be hurt again.
Some people say I set my standards too high.
Is having a good listener, someone soft-spoken, a golden retriever type of person, trying to understand me, and good with words considered high standards? (Would like to add good looking and financially stable also, ehek ;p)
If yes, how can't I?
But if I can't meet all the criteria, at least I need someone who is soft-spoken and a good listener.
Tbh, I can't deal with people who are short-tempered. Nahh man, I can't!
But if I found them,
do I deserve them?
I'm not a good person
I don't have a beautiful face
I'm just an ordinary person.
Yeah, you can call me a high-demand girl while I'm not good enough.
That's why I'm still single.
I set a boundary.
Maybe I'll be single forever.
But I also want to experience how beautiful love is-through the good days and bad days together. Having an argument is normal, but it's about how we deal with it.
Communication, yes.
If I'm having a bad day, I don't need a detective to solve my problem. I need someone who is there, sitting silently with me, no words exchanged, but I feel safe. Give me a hug. Treat me better.
Waiting for me to open my mouth to share the story.
Man, me and my delusional HAHAHAHAH
Okay that's all.
Good night~~~
P/s: Sorry for my messy thoughts. I don't know why I'm thinking all of that at the same time.
