Rendezvous Hearts

Spellbound of the Past

It's been a long time, Friend.

So much changed more than you have ever feared.

It's creepy and sends me anxiety by day and night.
Yet I've still carried it with me:
All the agonies of the past,
Those dreams unacclaimed and the hopes of a bright future.

The world ended up so much different than what I used to see with my young child's eyes back then.
I got afraid and confused and I lost my way.

I lost the spark of that ambition,
I lost the smile that radiated brighter than the sun.

And you know what, I have only been seeing fond memories of the past.
I couldn't get a glimpse of tomorrow.

My hope is crushed and so is my heart.
My thoughts wandered to countless realms and yet I couldn't find the universe where I belonged.

I breathed and yet I breathe without air and lungs construct so hard.

I have always longed to be in that time again but reality locked me up at present where I couldn't do anything but to watch every passing of day.

I looked far through the window and the vast world outside taunted me and, at the same time, haunted me as if searching something deeo in my soul.

I made a lot of dumb mistakes and I felt sugar-coating the guilty feelings every time my conscience reminds of those dark days and those silly actions that led me to doubt myself now.

I see it...

I was once a star so much as I deemed I was back then.

So radiant, so beautiful, and so impossible to reach and destroy.

But now, all I see is an empty vessel of a soul,
No light,
No splendor,
Not much of a worth.

And I seek for it...
A new light,
A new path
To open and lead me out of this distorted universe's spell.

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AerixielDaiminse