Ella Toone - I Could Never

1.5K 26 0
                                    

Hello everyone! This one is a little longer than the past few I have written so hopefully it's a little better xx

I am a rather conservative kind of person that hates attention and would do anything to avoid people putting all of their focus on me.
You see I had a rather rough past relationship with an abusive girl. I had been with her for a year and it didn't take long for her to start physically hurting me. After finally getting myself out of the relationship I would constantly think the trauma of that experience was doomed to repeat itself. So I focused on my career as a school teacher and not on getting myself a loving partner.

That was until I met Ella, the most caring person you will ever know. I met her in a country club when she was out with her football teammates. We instantly clicked and I allowed myself to fall for her.

So here we are today...

⚽️⚽️⚽️

I have just arrived home from the school I work at. I know Ella is at training so I just crash on the lounge and turn on my favourite show. Ella usually gets home from training around 5:30 pm and it is currently 4:00 pm so I have quite some time to kill.

After watching a few episodes of Outer Banks, I decide to go to the shops and buy some new furniture for our apartment before Ella gets home, instead of being lazy and doing nothing for the rest of the day. I go upstairs and get changed into tracksuit pants and a matching jumper as it is quite cold in Manchester around this time of year. Once I'm dressed and ready to go, I grab my keys and phone and get in the car.

The drive to the shops is short and sweet as I think about what may look nice in our apartment. I park my car and get out, setting off for the first store I have in mind.

The second I step foot in the store my eyes fall on a certain brunette that I know all too well. The one person I hoped to never see again, my ex girlfriend.

My heart catches in my throat but I continue into the store and pretend I don't see her. I figure she can't do anything with so many surrounding people. I browse the shelves, picturing everything in our apartment and deciphering between what I like and dislike. I am completely in my element when I feel someone grab my wrist.

I turn around in shock and look up to see my ex smirking down at me. "Hello Y/n, how are you?" She speaks in a deep voice. I roll my eyes and pull my hand away from her grip. "What do you want" I spit coldly at her. She looks at me with anger present and grabs onto my waist.

"What the fuck are you doing!" I push her away and attempt to walk away. She grabs onto my wrist once again and pulls me back to her. "Not so fast love" she smirks manically. "What do you want, Jessica" I sigh and stay a good distance from her so she can't touch me again.

"You" she says simply, waiting for me to respond. I look at her in horror and think of how happy I am with Ella. She could never give me that form of happiness. "Sorry but I'm in a loving relationship" I say, emphasising the word 'loving'. The anger settles in her face once again, making her wrinkles more visible. "I'm sure they can't make you feel the way I did" she states, making me wince.

"Please leave me alone, Jessica" I plead, wanting nothing more than to go home and be in Ella's arms. "This will not be the last time we meet, love" she says finally before she walks away. I compose myself and walk out of the store. As I walk out I see this girl looking rather suspicious at the store window. I just ignore her and walk cautiously back to my car.

⚽️⚽️⚽️

I arrive home around 10 minutes later, relieved that I'm in the safety of our apartment. I had abandoned my shopping and I'm not exactly satisfied with it. But I forget about it and begin to cook dinner, contemplating whether or not I should tell Ella about my encounter with Jessica.

About an hour later I plate the food I had made and wait for Ella to arrive home from training. Not even 5 minutes of waiting later, I hear the door open and close, signally Ella's return. She takes a little longer than usual and when she finally enters the kitchen she doesn't say a word.

Strange. I think to myself and try to strike up a conversation with my usually bubbly girlfriend. "How was training, babe" I smile softly.

"Don't you dare 'babe' me Y/n" she says sternly and I am taken aback.

"We need to talk" she states and I slightly nod, confused and a little scared for what she has to say.

She walks over to the stairs and I follow her. "What the fuck were you doing while I was at training, hm?" She questions, accusingly. "I-I went shopping for furniture" I whisper, hanging my head low, wondering what she thought I was doing, "Oh yeah, 'shopping'" she mocks and scoffs. I have never seen her so angry. I don't have good experience with anger at all and I can't lie, I'm scared. I love Ella with everything I have but I once loved Jessica like that too. We all know how that ended.

"Why are you upset Ella?" I reluctantly question. "Are you kidding right now, Y/n" she sighs and pulls out her phone and shows me a picture. A picture of Jessica holding my waist inside the store. I stare at the picture and think back to the girl at the window. I knew she was up to something. I think to myself and prepare to explain everything to Ella, who was looking extremely betrayed.

"Ella, please let me explain" I say, looking at her for the first time. She is looking almost defeated instead of angry at this point, I feel guilty somehow, though I hadn't actually done anything. She nodded, telling me to go ahead and I did.

"Ella, that girl is my ex. She wasn't exactly the nicest to me and frankly, just didn't treat me well at all. She would you know, hurt me, threaten me, whatever" I paused, taking a breath, then start to speak again.

"So what happened today was, I went out to get some stuff for our apartment and coincidentally, she was there as well. She came over to me and started speaking to me. She started grabbing my wrist and waist and obviously I pushed her away every time. She said she wanted me back and whatever else and I said I had a girlfriend and left. That's it"

I finished speaking and Ella brought her hand up to run through her hair and me, being the nervous wreck that I currently am, flinched at the movement. Ella immediately has sorrow and regret plastered all over her face upon seeing how awfully nervous I am in this moment.

"Oh my god, Y/n" she embraces me in a hug and whispers hundreds of apologies in my ear. "I can't believe I thought so lowly of you to think you would actually do something like this" she whispers and I begin to cry over the regret that my girlfriend is showing me right now.

We pull away and Ella lifts my chin up so our eyes meet. "Y/n" she breathes and I nod. "You know I could never hurt you, right" she states seriously and I believe every word. "Of course, Ella" I smile. "I was just nervous that's all" I say and Ella sighs. "I shouldn't have gotten so defensive so fast, I'm truly sorry baby" I just hug her tight. "You had every right to be upset" I say, completely understanding her feelings.

"Now come on, let's eat the dinner I made for us" I laugh.

"It may be a little cold, love" We both laugh together.

Past me wanted to be me so bad.

⚽️⚽️⚽️

1400 words! Better than I have been doing xx

Woso one shotsWhere stories live. Discover now