My mom and I sat talking for hours. Eventually we came up with a plan. I would just snack throughout the day. Healthy things, like celery and bell peppers maybe occasional carrots. That would be my meals.
It was hard, my grandparents offered me their homemade food and I would refuse it. I could see the sadness in their eyes but I just couldn't eat.
It was a lot of self confidence that I needed to help fix this. So I was often having battles with myself. I look amazing, one part of me would think. No, you're a fat blob that no one loves or wants to be around, the other part of me would think.
As this is still going on, I do have a message. My anxiety, and depression and eating disorder wouldn't be fixed overnight. And either will yours if you have one. But it's a process. A process of self-care, confidence, and self love. Its going to be a battle that will not be easy. So keep doing the things you love, don't stop being yourself. Everything will be okay in the end.
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The Shadow of Myself
Non-FictionThis is based on a true story, my story. I've recently been battling an Eating disorder, and depression. Mixed with my anxiety and stress that I've had my entire life, I want to raise awareness and tell you. This is common, you are not alone. Please...
