Move on (Destiel)

7. Daddy Issues

----------------------------Dean's POV-------------------------

"Uh, Im Dean Winchester." He said confused.

Gabriel laughed and palmed his shoulder.

"Dean-o, take it easy, if you dont relax it'll hurt more." I blushed and the boy laughed louder. "Im just kidding big boy." He walked away while Dean stared at his feet confused.

What was that? Is it that obvious that I'm gay? Ugh I need more Vodka.

I walked down the street looking for a liquor store.

"Bingo!" I said, crossing the street to the old place.

As I enter my eyes encountered what I was looking for, at the corner of the room in a big black stand was one bottle of Vodka, I walked toward it but someone took it first, he was short, with black hair and I knew him, but didn't know how. He turned around and his beautiful blue eyes got caught in mine, he tilted his head like a confused puppy and broke the eye contact.

"So you're following me now or what?" He said and went to the cash register, I shook my head walking towards the stands and asked the man behind the counter.

"Do you have more Vodka?" My voice was shaky, the guy called Castiel noticed because he glanced at me and I shrank his eyes, I was scared that if someone looked at me with pity I'll break down.

"Sorry sir, that was the last one." the man said pointing at Castiel's bottle, my fist bumped in the counter and I nodded walking out of the shop.

"Great, just great." I snapped walking away from the shop. I could hear footsteps behind me and I walked faster, I didn't want to see or talk to Castiel.

"Uhm... Dean? It's Dean right?" A low raspy voice said behind me, my head fell in disappointment, I just can't get any peace.

"Yeah, what do you want? Are you going to yell at me about yesterday? Or hit me?" I said annoyed, I was being bitchy but I just wasn't in the mood. "I would be happy to fulfill your wishes, but it'll be another time because newsflash sweetheart I'm not in the mood." I turned around to the same tilted head, just right now I noticed how cute he looked and...

"I... I just wanted to ask you if you wanted to share." He said lowering his eyes to the floor. "I know yesterday we weren't in the best of therms but you need a drink and I can't drink all this on my own, so."

I blushed and scratched my neck nervously.

"Ugh, really?" I mumbled full of shame, he smiled and nodded. "Then hell yes, I need to get drunk as fast as possible." I said honest.

Castiel chuckled and started walking, I stared at him confused.

"So are you going to stand there all day or are you getting drunk with me." He said sassily.

"Yeah" I said walking right next to him.

-------------------Cas' POV---------------------

I took him to my house and signaled to him to sit down in my dinning room, I went to the kitchen and took two short glasses each with two ice cubes, I filled them and handed one to Dean.

"Let's get drunk until we forget our own names." I said and he taped his glass on mine.

"Amen." He said, we both swallowed our drinks at once and filled them again, and again and again, until the bottle was empty, my throat burning and Dean giggling.

"I'm really sorry man. like I was such a jerk." He half said half babbled. "I mean, I totally understand the loss, not in your way but kind of."

I looked at him and nodded to lost to answer.

"When Adam left me I was so broken, and I couldn't tell anyone because we were a secret and no one knows I'm gay." He kept talking, at the mention of the world "gay" my eyes widened. He looked at me and said, "I know right?! Nobody suspects."

"Well, you should be nice," I babbled two, I didn't even know if what I said made any sense, but my feelings started bubbling out of my mouth. "Dan was great, he was sporty and intelligent, he loved to say random facts and read books, he even read those school books kind of thing..." I mumbled and sniffed. "You should have seen his eyes sparkle when he talked about his job, his hobbies and the ones he loved. He was just perfect, and I don't think I can move on without him." dean patted my shoulder and shushed me.

"Don't do it, you are clearly hurt and not ready to talk about him." He smiled reassuringly and kept talking. "I can talk about Adam because it was a break up, its nothing, but you, you've been through too much." He said and his eyes turned sad. "I wish I could change myself with Dan, he clearly was better than me and I would make everyone a favor by just disappearing from the faze of the earth." He was getting so sad. "Adam was right when he told me I didn't felt worth living, because it's true." His eyes filled with tears, he started sniffing and his lower lip trembled.

"I know how you feel, I do, but you should know that you are worth it and I love Dan but I wouldn't change your places, it isn't fate." I said depressed, this was making him really sad and he didn't know if it was the vodka in his veins or the Dan look alike with low self esteem and beautiful green eyes. "Look at me, people feel worthless at times, people cry and sobs, people fall and sometimes they give up, but they recover and stand up, they try again, you need to try again but now you need to be yourself and try again that way." I said really impressed by my own words.

He looked at me and I could see the tears falling through his cheeks, his eyes were so full of sadness and now I realized he was just a little boy trying to pretend he was grown man.

"I know I'm worthless." He whispered, his voice broke in the last word.

"How do you know?" I said sadly.

"My father and Adam told me so." He said as a sob escaped his pink lips.

The night went on and on, we talked about our lives and problems. I told him about Dan, his obsession with video games and anime, and he told me about Adam, I'm glad they broke up, he was an asshole and I'm still wondering why Dean is crying about him.

After hours of crying, talking and laughing we fell asleep next to each other in the dining room table.

**********Authors note**********

So they are starting to know each other, they got drunk and confessed everything that crushed down. I gave you some details about Dan and about Dean's relationship with Adam.
It was kind of uneventful but it was necessary.
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