Move on (Destiel)

12. I don't deserve to be saved.

------------------------------------------------ Cas' POV -------------------------------------------------------

Dean followed gripping my hand tightly, I could feel him shaking, I went to the bed and sat pulling Dean next to me, he sat and looked at my eyes, his green eyes looked greener, a hint of sadness was hiding in his eyes, a tear slipped from his eye and he started crying again.

"Cas..." He sobbed, his head hanging low and his eyes looking anywhere but mine. I placed one hand on his chin lifting it up.

"Look at me Dean." I breathed out, he didn't do it, his eyes shunned away from mine. "Dean..." I said pleadingly, until this moment I hadn't realized how much it hurts me looking at him like this. "Dean." I uttered as a tear rolled out of my eye, he looked at me and his eyes where on shock.

"Why are you crying?" He whispered looking to my eyes, I blushed and looked down.

"It hurts me to see you like this..." I mumbled barely understandable, but he did understand, this time he lifted my chin and made me look him in the eyes, his eyes were open wided, he stared at me and hugged me.

"Cas." He said softly, I was in shock but shook my head and snapped out of it putting my arms around his neck and pulling him to me, I layed on the bed with him next to me, his head was laying in my chest, his arms around my waist and mine where around him too. "Please dont leave me." He sobbed and shook again, I've never seen him so vulnerable.

"What is wrong Dean?" I replied, he shifted in my arms. "Dean talk to me, I can help you." He let out a sob, it was filled with pain I've never seen before.

"No one can help me..." He cried out. I caressed his hair and shooshed him.

"I can, let me save you Dean." I begged, my heart hurted so much, like if someone was cutting it and squeesing it.

"I don't deserve to be saved Cas." He insisted. "I'm a waste of time." He sighed.

"Don't you dare..." I hissed, as angry tears left my eyes. "You don't think you deserve to be saved." I mumbled. "But I will save you." I sobbed.

We laid there looking at the ceiling, the only thing to be heard was our hearts synchronized and our heavy breaths, he outlined my abdomen with his fingers as I caressed his hair soothing him.

"I think we were meant to meet Cas." Dean confesed, his cheeks turning bright red. "I think it was destiny." He mumbled and falled asleep. I laid there awake thinking about everything that happened since the day I met Dean, I turned my face to him, his face looked so peaceful almost like a child, all his wrinkles were gone, he looked younger but there was a trace of sadness in his beautiful face, I traced all his freckles with my fingers, caressed his chin and cheeks.

"What are you doing to me Dean Winchester?" I vociferated to the air witing for an answer that never came. At the end the tiredness won me over as I fell to Morpheus' arms.

----------------------------------------------------- Dean's POV -------------------------------------------------------------

I woke up to a headache caused by all the crying, red puffy eyes and a pair of warm arms around me, I looked at Cas' face, he was beautiful, his lips where in a soft line, all the wrinkles he has from smiling are gone and it was beautiful but not as beautiful as his smile.
I was so tempted to kiss him right there and now, softly so he wouldn't notice, I started to get close to Cas' face as I poked him and when he didn't move I got closer and then Cas moved, I jumped back, Cas didn't seem to notice because he laid there unaffected, I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice Castiel waking up and blushing, I smiled at him but he was staring shocked.

"What's wrong Cas?" I said sadly, he blushed more as a moan escapes his lips, then he looked down, I followed his eyes and noticed that my hand was in his crotch, I blushed more because Cas' member was erect.

I felt a bulge growing in my pants as I moved my hand away and blushed even more when Cas moaned again.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled. "I didn't noticed, I'm so sorry." I said looking at Cas, I was still in his arms, his eyes were closed and he nodded.

"I'm going to take a shower, okay? If you want I'll leave you a towel so you can take one too, and maybe borrow you clothes." I uttered embarrassed trying to cover the now awake member between my legs.

"Thanks Dean." He replied in his morning voice causing my member to twitch.

I half ran half walked to the bathroom trying to avoid an awkward situation.

"Son of a bitch." I mumbled under my breath, I took of my clothes and instantly felt relief in my member, I took it in my hand and started moving, I thought about Castiel's mouth in it, his hands moving through my body, his eyes looking at me innocent and that did it, I got relief by just thinking about those blue eyes, I continued to wash myself as I heard a moan outside. I tried to stop picturing Cas in the bed touching himself thinking about me, my member started to wake up again and for the second time this day y jerked off, this time was better because Castiel moans filled the room making me come as hard as I could moaning Cas as loud as I could, in the other room I heard Cas coming too saying Dan.

I blushed instantly because I thought maybe Cas liked me and think about me as much as I did but now I realize that maybe is because I look exactly like Dan.

************************* Authors note *******************
So Dean and Cas but how do try feel and what about this chapter. I decided that it will be smut and fluff
So here you go, comment, vote, follow xx.
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