suicidal(trippie redd)

twenty

~two days later~ {school is back in session}

MICHAELS POV

"hol up its gon go like, criss cross apple sauce ride up on my cocky uhh" jahseh rapped as he wrote to a beat

"AYE GENTLEMEN MAKE SURE YOU ARE WALKING YOUR LAPS DO NOT STOP" mr jones yelled after blowing his whistle

i do not give a fuck about this song or this class i just wanna know how cherry is doing she been in the hospital for two days and i haven't heard anything since that night at that hospital

the shit is emotionally draining like i never felt this fucked up over a situation since ayleks broke my heart

"trippie vro you gotta lock in on this song i need you on the chorus" jahseh said nudging me in my side

"ouch nigga don't touch me ight play the beat for me real quick"

"i know you gon hit this shit trip you should sing about these thots to keep yo mind sharp that would be hard" ski added

after hearing the beat ski was kinda right i should make a song about these thots since that's all i got to fall back on right now

"ight what if i be like, baby uh ouu i hit that bitch from the back and like uh ouu ayeee" i sang along to the beat

jahseh and ski then started jumping up and down geeked hyping me up for the lyrics i just thought of for the song

"yea y'all finna make a hit and get us outta this fuck ass school" ski said cheesing hard as hell

"on god we are" i replied getting hype with them

CHERRYS POV

they told me they would release me in two days and i really don't know how to feel about that

i should've died

now as soon as i get home i'm going to get the worst ass beating ever for embarrassing my mom in this new city

i can't believe the doctors couldn't tell my own self inflicted wounds and scars from the abuse from my mother but that's just what happens to girls like me

all i can dream about is living a normal life and becoming a fashion designer except in reality i know i can't

there was then a knock on my door as i told whoever it was to come it

it was one of the nurses that made sure i ate and went to the bathroom

"hey ms. cherry since you've been showing signs of improvement we are going to reward you with your phone" the nurse said as she handed over my phone

"thanks" i responded as i gave her a fake smile

"i will be back in an hour or so to make sure you finished your breakfast and need help going to the bathroom" the nurse told me before leaving the room

i turned on my phone and saw almost a hundred notifications pop up

50 instagram notifications
5 missed calls
2 voicemails
15 snapchat notifications
12 text messages
16 tiktok notifications

i decided to start with the voicemails since those were the lowest number

the first voicemail was from emani from the night at michaels so i pressed play and waited on the message

i'm deeply sorry cherry i was so irresponsible worrying about that dumb bitch skye instead of hanging with you, i-i just feel horrible that the demons got to you before we could have a good time tonight, the way i saw your body was heartbreaking and if you're listening this far that means my prayers worked and god knows you aren't done yet, i love you cherry seriously girl call me please when you get this..please

the message ended

i could tell emani seriously cared for me because she never had to look out for me but always did

i guess i do have friends

before i called emani back i decided to listen to the other voicemail while i was in the tab

this message was from michael

i hesitated to press play but something inside of me told me i needed to hear him out so i pressed play

cherry..where the fuck i start, this all my fault i almost killed you if i had never let you go alone you would be okay and i couldn't save you that shit hurt my heart deadass..when i picked you up when you wasnt breathing i died too and that's fucked up im sorry. just please call me back let me know everything is okay

that was the end of the message

i can't believe hearing michael being so genuine considering the fact he's been so bipolar towards me

it's like my brain is telling me to accept his apology and try being friends with him again but another part of me is telling me he will hurt me bad again

i really don't know what to do

there was then a knock at my door

"yes come in" i answered

it was the same nurse that gave me my phone

"did you finish your breakfast?" she asked coming closer to my bed

"no i'm sorry i'm not really hungry i think i just wanna go back to sleep" i said pushing away the bed table

the nurse agreed as she set my bed back to a comfortable spot for me to get rest

she also took away the food then turned off the lights to my room

"i'll be back in an hour or so to check on you okay

"okay" i responded shutting my eyes almost falling asleep immediately