Tamia
"u straight" Jayden asked me and I nodded he eyed me before walking out the room
it's been 3 days after our lil fight and we ain't been talking fr, he don't even sleep in the bed wit me this man literally sleep in the guest room. he been staying home a lil more tho ig tryna prove he ain't cheating idc tbh
Idk part of me feel like I did take the situation to far but the other feel like I did wtf I did cus I felt played with in that moment and when you mad you don't think fr you just do shit outta anger and that's where allat hitting came from
I can admit I was wrong cus after the first warning when he said "hit me again imma punch you in yo shit on my son" I should've stopped but nah I kept going. Like I really made the situation worse.
we still ain't even talk about it and ts blowing me.
then von came and got vontae yesterday and said he ah bring him back when we get our house together cus he don't need to be around this toxic energy and i definitely feel him on that
My brother also explained to me that I was wrong too and he told me how. I just wanna talk about it. von said I need to hear Jayden out.
"Jayden" I called out
"what" he said popping up inna doorway with the meanest look on his face
"I love you" I said
"I love you too mia wtf u want" he said
"I wanna talk" I mumbled
"ion wanna talk rn" he simply said
"Jayden we ain't talk in 3 days. im tryna hear you out" I said
"ion gaf about you hearing me out nomo cus you gone be think whatchu want mia ion got time to keep explaining myself" he said
"so what we gone do Jayden if we ain't gone talk? break up" i asked confused
"did i say dat mia? yk dat breaking up shit dead asf ian going for it but ian finna keep tryna tell yo ass dat I ain't cheating bruh ts getting old and aggravating we been doing ts since we got tg" he stressed to me
"Jayden can u just work with me? Im sorry fr. Just tell me the truth tho that lying in my face shit ain't gone work" i said
"I am working witchu mia bruh. I told you ts old! I hit da lil bitch when vontae was first born me and quan. ts old idk why she talking about it" he said
~
"Why yo head so fucked up" Jayden asked me
"wym" I asked passing the blunt
"why you so angry? why you don't trust nobody" he asked
"because don't nobody care about me but me and my siblings" i said truthfully
"my whole life its always been mia vs the world" I said
"my own momma don't even love me Jayden how df imma expect for somebody else to love me when growing up ian feel nun of ts. Idk wtf love is, never felt ts. only ppl that ever loved me unconditionally is my brother and sisters. Jayden i feel Lost like ion got nb. Im in the cold ass world with nobody. just me and my son" i said
