Begin Again

Chapter 10

⚠️TW: Panic attack, self harm, blood⚠️

This one is probably the longest and heaviest one so you may want to sit down.
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2 weeks later~
Pete finished his exams of the semester and is now on a break, so that means more time with Vegas, which he would never mind, he woke up early and went to make breakfast, vegas was already in his office since he had a lot of work, Pete prepared the table and went to call him, he walked to him and sat on the corner of the desk, "I made breakfast," he said bringing vegas out of his concentration, Pete wasn't wearing any top, he was obviously nervous since it's the first vegas sees him half naked and also because his scars are no longer hidden, Vegas leaned against his chair admiring the beauty in front of him, wondering how he got so lucky, but also getting worried when he noticed  the scars but he didn't show it cuz he can see that pete is already anxious, so he pulled him slowly towards him to sit on his lap, Pete smiled throwing his legs on his both sides and wrapping his arms around his neck, vegas pecked him on his lips, "Thank you my kitten,"

Pete smiled shyly hiding his face in Vegas's neck and started giving him butterfly kisses, "naaah you do not get to walk in my office half naked and then act shy baby boy," Vegas said removing Pete's head from his neck, he took his chin and leaned to kiss him with a smirk, which pete returned immediately, vegas was running his fingers gently on his back, pete tried to get his tongue inside vegas' mouth but vegas stopped him, he run his finger on pete's red lips "Let's go eat, I'm hungry," he said and stood up carrying pete who got a little disappointed, he put him down and pete started to feel his anxiety taking control again,

"Umm give me one second," he said awkwardly and ran to his room, he stood in front of the mirror and looked at his body, that was a stupid idea, he took an oversized T-shirt and put it on and returned to vegas, he sat down trying to look normal but vegas frowned his eyebrows "What happened?" "Nothing I just got cold hehe, let's eat," he said briefly knowing that Vegas didn't believe him, his boyfriend could read through him and it's true, vegas knew that something was wrong but he didn't push it, "I have a book event today so I won't have lunch here is that okay?" Vegas asked and Pete nodded with a smile "Of course," "I will try to come back as fast as I can," "Okay, I will be working on your painting so I will probably just have a snack then we can have dinner together," "Sounds perfect,"

Vegas was getting ready while Pete was watching him by the door, "You look so handsome baby," 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒆, vegas smiled and walked to him and held his waist, "Thank you, my love," Pete was expecting a kiss on the lips but vegas just pecked his cheek quickly and walked to the living room leaving Pete fighting his rushing bad thoughts, he got in the room and locked the door cause he that's the only coping mechanism he knows when he gets triggered, He decided to start painting to distract himself and moments later Vegas came back to the room to kiss him goodbye but the door was locked, "Pete! Are you okay??" "Y-yes I'm fine I just- I'm changing into my painting clothes so I'm fully naked here haha," vegas felt something off in his tone but he just said, "Okay I see, I have to leave now it won't take long okay, I love you," Pete tried to keep his voice normal, "I love you too, I'll see you later," he said and went back to the painting,

Vegas arrived at the venue but his mind was in chaos, he was restless the whole afternoon and barely paying attention to anything, he tried to call Pete but his phone was turned off, which did not help with his worry, Tem noticed and came to him, "Vegas, are you okay?" "Pete's not answering and he didn't look well when I left," Tem thought for a second "Maybe he's painting, he doesn't like to be disturbed when doing it," "Probably, but...I just don't feel good about this, maybe I should leave," "It's only one hour left vegas, maybe you're just overthinking I'm sure he's fine," vegas didn't say anything and decided to calm down, maybe Tem's right,