is it to late to change my mind?

━ ✦ chapter six✦ ━━

johnnie POV

i explained to jake what we were doing and he decided to stay anyways so i just let him, maybe he wanted to hear it?? i started the stream, me and kyle were answering questions, about ourselves, mde, owa and some things about other members. "what happened to alex?" someone asks, i hate talking about it but i answer "she got off the internet, she is doing well though" i dont go into detail for one, its not my story to tell and for two, i dont really know much. we answer a lot of random questions most of them have been answered a million times already but oh well, "is kohnnie canon?" someone asks "yes" kyle says immediately and i roll my eyes smiling "why did kyle get kicked off our world away?" i look at kyle to see if he wants to answer "mental health issues i didnt handle correctly" he responds and i add in "luke didnt handle it well either, but its all good now, no one holds a grudge" and kyle nods "would you guys kiss for a $100 dono?" this one catches me off guard and i look at kyle who has a stupid smirk

jake has been quite most of the time, he doesnt have much to say but i warned him beforehand what we were doing, he looked up at that question though he looked at us suspecting "i mean.. $100 is $100.." kyle says with that smug face "oh well, nothing we havnt done before" i shrug and chat goes insane "donate first and we will" kyle says and jake just stares before butting in saying "wowww and he wouldnt kiss me for $50" i just shake my head laughing before throwing my hands up defensively "hey listen, that is a $50 difference okay?" i say in my silly voice joking around until we hear the dono go off and we all stare at the screen for a while "well?~" kyle looks over at me and i roll my eyes, we kiss and it feels natural, we kiss for a little to long "get a room damn, you are still live guys.." jake says in a joking tone but i can hear the irritation in his voice

chat is still freaking out even after a few minutes "im having flash backs" kyle jokes and i nod laughing to then kyle speaks again "get johnnie to 2 million subs and we will have sex" i jump back a little "OKAY WOAHHHH" i shout laughing just then jake got up and left the room i was confused but i dint want to cause drama over it so i let it go, me and kyle finished the stream and since it was very late now we decided to go to sleep. after we laid down and stuff i told kyle i was going to talk to jake real fast and he nodded as he rolled over in bed to sleep.

i knock on jakes door "jake.." i knock more until i hear him say come in. "you okay?" i ask without thinking much "im fine. why?" he sounds mad "you left without a word so i just-" he cuts me off "isnt your boyfriend waiting for you?? what do you want" i was shocked and just stood there for a second "what the fuck??" i close his door stepping in now "what is up with you?? you said you didnt care that i was gay so what the hell is this??" i ask giving him a look crossing my arms "you think im being homophobic right now?!" he shouts and i cant hide the flinch but i fight back anyways "uhh yeah?? what else could this be?!" i shout at him not understanding what the hell is happening. "im not homophobic johnnie are you serious right now??" he looks at me like im dumb and it makes me even angrier

"then what are you so pissed about?? you have been acting like this ever since you heard i was seeing kyle, so what if i went out with him?? it doesnt effect you UNLESS your homophobic." i argue "so you are going out with him?!" jake shouts "and if i was?? what are you going to do?? kick me out ?" i shout back even though its not true i just want to see what jake will say but he looks hurt "you didnt even tell me.." jake says sounding sad his voice quite now "what?.." i ask confused as i relax a little "you lied again, you keep hiding things from me.." jake looks up at me again from where he sat on his bed i sigh "we arent going out, im not hiding anything jake me and kyle are just friends" jake stared for a second "then why did you kiss him?" i laugh at that "jake we have kissed multiple time and we are just friends arnt we? so why cant i kiss kyle??" i cross my arms looking at jake

"but you like me.." jake says and i almost scoff he sounds cocky "i already told you i dont like you like that man, you seriously cant move on??" i say a little irritated he still thinks i like him even though i do i dont want him to know that, we sit in silence and he looks hurt as he looks away "do you like kyle?" he asks still looking away and i take to long to answer judging by his response "you do dont you? im to late.." my eyebrows furrow as i look at him confused "what do you mean jake?.."

"i love you johnnie... i was to scared to admit to myself that i liked a dude" he paused before speaking "but i have always loved you johnnie, the reason i raided you on twitch was cause you were hot and even back then i already liked you.. but i didnt want to like a boy.." i was shocked by his words my mouth hung open and i just stared at him "y-your just joking" i said not beliving he could be for real "no im not, im so serious" he stood up and walked over to me grabbing my chin making me look up at him "i dont want you to like kyle, i want you to like me. what do i have to do to make you like me again?" he asks with a sad expression, i stand on my tippy toes and kiss jake it takes him a second to kiss back out of shock. i pull away "i never stopped liking you jake.." i say looking away as i lower back to my feet.

"then why did you stop hanging out with me?? why did everything change?" he sounded upset again but i understand now "i thought that if i distanced myself my feelings would go away.. but they didnt and i still love you jake, it hurt alot doing that you know.." i say smiling up at him and he smiled back warmly hugging me tightly i almost couldn't breathe "it hurt me too, i missed you so much johnnie you have no idea" he sighs before continuing "are you sure you dont like kyle?" i laugh "i dont, i used to yes, back when we were teens me and kyle had raging crushes on each other but we got older and grew apart" i explained pulling back to look at jake "me and kyle just joke around like that, its how we have always been but he has a crush on someone else now, we just kissed for the fans and for the memories. it really didnt mean anything i promise jake" i finish and i smile warmly at jake and he smiled back "good, now i dont hate him so much" he says jokingly and i laugh hugging him again