A/n POV
/ It's 3:32 am in a rainy night. Dark clouds are making it more scarier. But a man in graveyard on someone's grave crying his heart out. A man who used to be as dark as blackhole is having a tears in his eyes . What a scene ! /
/ His restless eyes , sore throat . In one hand a champaign and in another a bouquet of white moon flowers. /
/ I wonder why is he here at someone's grave crying so hard at this time ? It's too late to here . I think He must be missing this person . /
[ Luciano POV ]
/ It's probably 3 in night or I don't know. I am just so tired. I know I'm quite drunk but I know one thing where to go to find some peace. Since you're gone , every night I'm feeling restless, dizziness, craziness which I have never felt. /
Luciano :- well mon amore ( My love) tu me manques (I miss you ) . Je suis désolé (I'm sorry ) . But I miss you alot . It's your 25th birthday . And guess what you are not here to celebrate your birthday. Loook what i bought . Your favourite flowers. The moon flower.It's been 3 years you left me. You left me with nothing but regrets and your painful memories. Can't you come back to me ?
/A tear dropped on his hand. /
Luciano :- look amore , this is my tear what you wanted to see. I'm crying. This dark emperor , this heartless monster , devil is crying. I think your wish is fulfilled now mon amore ( my love ) . The way you used to curse that one day I'll regret , one day I'll cry the way you used to.
/ I sobbed as I remember those painful screams to stop me. /
Luciano :- Everything you said are becoming real except one thing .
/ I scoffed. /
Luciano:- Remember you told me , that my ego , my attitude , my money , my power , my awe, my strength , my darkness , all will vanish when I'll be in my grave . It's not truth . You lied to me. These all things faded since you're gone ! You didn't tell me that this will fade as you're gone.
/I screamed and this time Nature also supported me with thunderstorm. /
Luciano:- I MISS YOU AMORE
/ I just screamed and cried. /
Luciano :- I miss you alot . I can't live like this. If it's not your last wish that you don't want me there with you . I swear amore I have killed myself right after you.
/ I smiled at her bitter words. /
Luciano :- you wanted me to regret. And look each and every second I'm regretting. For what I've done , for what I have taken from you. Yo~~you always wanted peace and freedom. Now you are at your peace but still not free from me . Cause you are the reason I'm breathing. I swear comeback I'll give you freedom and anything you want. That laptop , tv , smartphone , garden , purse , heels , I'll give you your education too. Just come back. I won't stop you anymore. I wanna hug you so tight mon amore. My heart is full of things that I can't say . No one understand me . I want you. je t'aime ( I LOVE YOU ) . I know I should have said these words before but mais désolé mon amour ( but sorry love ) I ~~
/ I was interrupted by a familiar voice . I didn't care to look behind . /
Andrew :- Luci...Luci... come here bro ! Why are you here at this time ? It's so late and raining heavily .
/ He said as held me by my shoulder to make me stand on my leg as I can't walk properly because of drink . But instead I pulled him . An umbrella from his hand fell on ground. /
Luciano :- sit here Andrew.
/ He did as I said. /
Luciano :- Andrew I miss her.
Andrew:- I know that buddy it's too late to stay here , let's go home we'll come here tomorrow.
Luciano:- No , you don't know . How much i miss her . No one know what I feel about her. I'm all alone bearing this. You don't know anything.
Andrew :- okay then let's go home tell me there whatever you feel ?
Luciano:- No , I wanna stay with her . It's her birthday.
Andrew :- But atleast look at time.
/ He said as he showed me his wrist watch . /
Luciano :- I don't care about time . Just sit here and let me light up the candles . And you didn't even wished her happy birthday.
/ I said with gritting my teeth. As I take cake which is wet and poisonous now . /
Andrew:- Happy birthday sister in law . And put that cake back it's ruined now.
Luciano :- No it's enough for me.
Andrew :- you'll be poisoned by this cake luci. Understand ! Just once !
Luciano:- then let it be . I wanna go to her. I can't live like this .
Andrew :- Remember she asked for peace . You wanna take that from her in heaven too ???
/ He asked as I just out my tears .
Nothing is with me then my regret and painful memory. He hugged me . /
Andrew :- Luci , let's go from her . Let her rest in peace on her birthday , hmm ???
Luciano:- you can go. I wanna stay with her tonight .
Andrew :- it's her birthday . What about giving her some peace and space as a birthday gift ?
Luciano:- oh , yes . You are right . She might not feel good on her birthday. Let's go from here .
After some time :-
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/ I'm in my room . As no one is allowed here not even Andrew. I did my routine of counting days without her. It's 1096th day without her. /
/ Now I went to my closet for changing but then I looked ar her clothes. A smile popped on my lips remember how scared and naive she was when she used to hide in this closet . But then I felt sting pain in my heart when I realize I was the reason why she was so scared. She was living such a wrost life . /
/ I opened a drawer and took out her handkerchief and placed it on my face . It still smells like before . This fragrance is captivating me . After this my eyes landed on something . It's her favorite purse , more like a pieces of that purse. I remember that . But still she kept it here ? Hided from me ? But you still failed ? I found it after all ! She begged me that day alot for not doing this bloody sin . Beside that purse something caught my attention. It's a photoframe . Our first couple photoframe. In our wedding clothes . She is still looking so pretty in her wedding gown. She cried alot on our wedding day. Every bad thing I have done to her now is roaming on my fucking mind. I think I killed her. I should have listened to her when she was bagging me for mercy. /
/ Then I take that photoframe and take it with me in my bed . Trying to sleep when i know I can't sleep . There is no peace in sleeping . My every night is sleepless. My every meal is tasteless. My life has became timeless . Peace is restless . The one thing that is her thought . These thought about her are not less . I wanna go to her. I wanna go somewhere where I will find some peace . Where I find some rest. No Luciano murphy. No devil . /
/ I just want myself to be human again . /
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By Péi
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HIS BLOODY SIN
RomanceSORRY I WON'T DO THAT AGAIN. ! A someone who was bearing all this shit screamed so hard and heard own acho in woods. ??:- I was forced to marry you. I never wanted to be with you. /she let out the words / ??:-.------ / silence she received/ ??:...
