Why am I like this towards you?
You and I have known each other for ages.
But I don't know what to say.
Today have proved that.
You thanked me and all I could to was nod.
I don't know how to talk to you. I don't know how to ask about your day. I don't know how badly you love the things you love.
My mother says you're going to think I hate you because I do not know and ask you these things.
Is she right?
Do you think I hate you?
Please don't think that.
I hope you don't think that.
I don't hate you.
I swear I don't.
I'm scared you won't like the person I really am.
The person I hide when I am with friends.
The person I protect when I'm at school.
The person I am when I'm in my room alone. The person I let others see when I trust them enough.
Will you like that person?
The person who gots weird looks when she actually tries in gym class; who got snide comments when she got an award in math; who has two people she really talks to in classes.
The person who dreams to have a future with you. The person you dreams of having an epic love story with a happy ever after.
When I am around you my thoughts turn blank. I ramble random things and later cringe about what I've said.
I don't know how to tell you about my day.
Or how to tell you what I love.
I don't hate you.
I really hope you don't think I do.
Maybe I don't know what love feels like.
But I feel a lot for you.
