i am no holy
yet i'm no hellish,
but i play games–
give myself names.
i fall from the grace
without stepping in hell,
behind the calmness of face
lies a sea of raging waves.
i am not your hero,
neither your nemesis;
life of the party, i guess–
turned my old friends marooned.
vindicated my friends,
keep myself alone;
fear the touch of your hands
yet i yearned warmth on my soul.
i did the unspeakable–
by writing tales, turning tables;
ain't no loser nor a victor–
darling, i'm the unreliable narrator.
beware of me,
for i did things you can't believe;
there lies a wolf beneath my sheepish color,
and darling, i'm the unreliable narrator.
BINABASA MO ANG
sweet dreams, beautiful nightmares
Poetryit was a beautiful dream, until it wasn't. (2024)