BabyDoll

Making friends

I am now is some sort of aeroplane with James and his friend I now discovered the name of Steve Rodger's. Him obviously not liking the fact I am near him. But he is trying to not react for James. It makes me think I put that man through living hell. And he still holds his tongue. For Bucky. Someone he loves dearly. That's what I want. Friends. Something I have lacked my whole life. Someone who can care for me but hold the same level of respect for me.

I look at bucky and he stares at me. " we have just took of so hopefully it won't be to long of a ride" he smiles. As he says that the red head from the bridge enters with a man with a bird suit on. I try to consume my laughter failing terrible laughing into my hand. A bird . Really. " can I ask one thing" I say laughing my head of trying to breathe, the man looks at me " why are all these so called super hero's dressed up as animals." I snort trying to compose my self " first I see a human cat that chased me on his hands and knees and now I see a bird" I laugh I hear someone snort I look up water brimming my eyes. Bucky trying to not laugh. I look at the red head who seems to physically be ok, I smirk " hey mamas" she just rolls her eyes " I didn't quite catch your name after I shot you what was it ?" I say trying to figure out who this women was. She just sits down by Bucky ignoring my question " come onnnn " she looks at me dead in the eye causing me to smirk "her name is Nat..... She is black widow" my eyes open wide. I can't hold it in and laugh so hard. " so we have a cat a bird and now a spider. It's like being at a zoo" she gets up and walks up to me grabbing my neck making my head go back so I can see her face. "Hey mamas" I say smirking. I am going to say it she is hot. I say that about a lot of people I've noticed. I don't know why but I feel slightly.... Nervous. I bite by bottom lip looking into her angered eyes. " you need to keep your mouth shut other wise you'll regret it" I laugh quietly "make me" she throws my head and sits back down " I know I should probably stay out of this but I want to just say that was hot." The bird states " I believe we haven't met properly birdie... I'm Astella." I say standing up and sticking my hand out so he can shake my hand. " sam, Sam Wilson" he shakes my hand. Bringing it to his lips and kissing my knuckles " quite the charmer Wilson." He smirks "well it would be rude to not to introduce myself" he says "can you two cut it out" Bucky says in uncomfortably. I sit back down " so what are the chances I get my full memories back James" I say in a serious tone "well hopefully banner can have a look and see what he can do" I nod turning to Nat "Nat .... Look I'm sorry I know I'm a sarcastic know it all but I can't change that. But I am sorry for what I did... I wasn't in the right mind but I can try change that " I say being completely serious " and I know the chances of me gaining your forgiveness is thin but I just want to make it clear I am trying to change" I look at the floor biting my cheek. " you see Astella, it's not that easy. Just to forgive. You're a bad person with or without hydras control so I don't want your apology." She snaps. Ouch. "Nat why would you say that. All the girl knows is hydra even tho she has some of her memory's back doesn't mean she knows who she is. Hydra is playing a massive part in her mind you can't blame her for that." Bucky defends me I am grateful he is passionate in getting rid of hydra but I didn't deserve it. " James it's ok. I deserve it. I can't force her into liking me. And that's ok I have killed a lot of people almost including Nat." She looks at me and nods turning to James " I don't like her " she says bluntly I start to bite my cheek again. I look at James " James can I ask you something" I say " what's up Astella" he says smiling. " how did you escape ?" I say looking at him " well we were sent to find Steve " forgetting he was on the plane just with the pilot "and we were fighting" I squint " you said you couldn't find him" I say hurt slightly I got punished for not finding him when Bucky just stood there and watched me get out into that horrible machine. Just to find out her knew where he was " well just before I went to go downstairs he was on the floor you asked me to search" a single tear dropping  to my cheek " so your telling me that whilst I was being put through ..that ...that machine. You knew where he was. You just let it happen knowing the truth to where he was." I am hurt he knew where he was but he was just planning his escape. " Astella I didn't mean for that to happen-" I cut him off " no you knew what you were doing. you were held there in front of me whilst I was taking in all that pain being punished for hours just so you could escape and leave me there. You didn't even ask if I was ok..." I have a few tears on my cheeks " Astella, i didn't know they would do that to you-" " BULLSHIT ....i might not have all my memories back but i have some of my ones from hydra. If we never did as we were told i was in for it. Never you I was always the one punished. So that just tells me you knew what you were doing." I am just crying now there's no stopping the tears now. I see Sam get up and sit next to me. He wraps his arms around me hugging me. Not knowing what he was doing " what- are you doing" I struggle to say " hugging you" I was confused to what caused the man to hug me but it was slightly comforting but I need to show no emotion. I stand up causing Wilson to stop hugging me. I wipe my tears and shake myself to refresh myself