peace:
worked out, cleaned my room, ate healthy, read, talked to friends, showered, now gonna watch a movie
trigger:
flashback about my mom hurting me
feeling:
dissociated, and impulsive
action:
find my hidden sharp
blood pours down my arm
cannot stop due to my lack of self control
clean up:
go to the bathroom
get bandages and neosporin
apply pressure to the cuts to stop bleeding
relief:
comfort floods over my body
i feel connected
more grounded
the urge went away
telling someone:
i tell my therapist
she tells me
"keep fighting"
"but i've lost"
i tell her back
JE LEEST
the reality of mental health
Poëzie"you're a complicated person to love, and care for" "i know" i say "i deal with it every day" TW: sh, si, & mental illness. feel free to skip if you get triggered by these things #2 in poem collection (2.27.24) #1 in poem collection (4.12.24)
