"Jongho, let me exp-"
"I'm telling mom and dad"
"No-"
"No, you won't"
Mingi said, turning all eyes on him
"What? Hyung, you knew?"
"Of course I did"
"And you didn't tell me?"
"Because I knew you would react like that; of course Y/n would've told you herself, but I first wanted her to overcome her addiction, so she can tell you herself, without pain"
"But I should be there for her"
"Of course, and you were, without you knowing it"
You said the last statement, coming between their conversation and went up to Jongho to hug him
"I think I can tell you everything now"
You said, looking up at Jongho as his eyes sparkled
"Are you sure sweetheart? Cause you don't have to"
Mingi asked worriedly
"No oppa, I'm sure"
You nodded, assuring him as you all sat down, every pair of eyes on you
"It all started when I confessed my feelings to one of my best friends in London, then he turned out to be gay, and someone might've heard our conversation that day and told everyone about Nick"
You said, a small tear escaping your eye as you wiped it and continued
"He thought I was the one who told everyone and I don't blame him for thinking that way, I just wished that he could've let me explain; but we drifted, and only me and Alice were left, I tried multiple times but his grudge against me was so strong; he got badly bullied because of his sexuality and he was even raped multiple times"
You said as more tears escaped your eyes, Yeosang tearing up, relating to the situations you described because he himself was not straight
"One day, I finally got a call from him, I was euphoric, I thought he finally forgave me, but all he said was, 'I hate you more than anything in this world' and then I heard him scream, he sounded drunk as well, so I ran up to his dorm building, a little too late, I opened the door and.."
You stopped as your tears became uncontrollable
"There it was, his lifeless body, slit wrists, blood pouncing out, unstoppable, I hugged his corpse and screamed, it was all my fault, if I hadn't confessed, he wouldn't have told me about him and no one would've heard us and he wouldn't have gotten bullied, and he would still be here with me, his bright eyes, shining like the stars, so much hope in him, so much passion, that all died, just because of me, because I was that selfish"
You said, breaking down, putting a hand on your chest, as you laid your body back, Mingi held himself back and didn't let the other guys come up to you so you could finally let everything out
"Nick, I miss you so much, I always went to that shitty restaurant you liked so much, high enough so I would like anything I put in my mouth; I bought the expensive perfume you used so much, so I could keep smelling you, you had so much to give, but the world didn't deserve you, not me, not anyone, I hope you're happy wherever you are, and I'm ready to let you go now"
You said, closing your eyes, as you bawled your eyes, feeling a warm embrace, looking up to see your older brother crying as well and patting your head, you hugged him and cried in his embrace
"I promise to always tell you everything from now on"
"And I promise to stay by your side no matter what, I love you Y/n"
As soon as he said that, you hugged him tighter and cried more loudly on his chest; eventually breaking the hug and smiled at each other
"I'm proud of you, and how grateful I am of Mingi hyung, he acted in such a grown up way"
You both looked at Mingi as he gave you both a comfortable smile
"Thank you for understanding you guys"
You said, sniffing and looking at the guys, as you made eye contact with Yeosang, still couldn't stop crying, you went up to him and hugged him
"It'll be alright oppa, we're here for you"
He cried in your arms, letting his past out as you patted his head
Everyone has their own story, it's what makes us human
- Time skip
After that sob fest, you all sat down
"Oppa, how did you translate my conversation?"
"I was recording it that day, worried that she might be harassing you, so I needed evidence"
Hongjoong said, as you looked at him surprised
"Yeah, I'm like that"
He said, scratching the back of his neck
"But Y/n, I was wondering if you had told Alice about your feelings towards Nick?"
"No, why?"
You said as his face became serious
"How did she know then?"
He asked as your eyes widened
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Jongho's little sister
FanfictionATEEZ FF You meet his friends after 5 years as you went abroad to get your degree and let's just say, you've matured...
