what the cover said

just keep swimming

single album I wrote for my imaginary group of plushies yay
written pretty damn long ago so like no judging!!

breakout

[verse]
I think it was years ago
When I last felt happiness
Then everything broke
And all that's left is a mess
Mentality shattered
I hide in this shell
My emotions are battered
My heart is as well

[chorus]
It feels like-
I was out on the ocean
And the raft gave in
I swim to the surface
And sink right back in
Thought I was a predator
But I'm the prey
Running from reality
That made me feel this way

It locked me up
And chained me to the floor
I can't move
Because it'll just hurt me more
I wanna break out
Of this prison I'm trapped in
Someone let me out
Because I think that I'm dying

[verse]
And they tell me "just keep swimming"
They thought it was that easy
I want to keep trying
But the world has gone crazy
I crouch in the corner of my safe little prison
I've gone insane, it feels like home
I barely feel the pain, it's noise in the background
I try to push through this cursed world alone

[chorus]
But it feels like-
I was out on the ocean
And the raft gave in
I swim to the surface
And sink right back in
Thought I was a predator
But I'm the prey
Running from reality
That made me feel this way

It locked me up
And chained me to the floor
I can't move
Because it'll just hurt me more
I wanna break out
Of this prison I'm trapped in
Someone let me out
Because I think that I'm dying

[bridge]
I'm holding my breath
There's not much air left
The sun on the surface feels foreign
I try to forget
Every person I've met
I've already lost all emotion

[chorus]
It feels like-
I was out on the ocean
And the raft gave in
I try to swim to the surface
But I sink right back in
Thought I was a predator
But I'm the prey
Running from reality
That made me feel this way

[bridge]
It locked me up
And chained me to the floor
I can't move
Because it'll just hurt me more
I wanna breakout
Of this prison I'm trapped in
Someone let me out
I'm sure that I'm dying now

north

[verse]
I'm running away, escaping reality
All I know is north, wherever it leads
My existence is just a calamity
This mess is ready to go right underneath
Heart is scarred, brain is broken
Forgot what okay feels like anymore
What am I, am I just a token
to the support you think you need

[pre-chorus]
Because the smiles hurt the most inside
You vent to another weight on my shoulder
I'm your solace, where is mine?

[chorus]
So I'm heading north, just heading north
Keep on running, don't stop to cry
Don't believe you have no worth
Every allegation is a lie
Just keep swimming, it's all you have
Don't let the pressure get to your head
Deeper, deeper, ditch the raft
Forgot who you are, there's no one left

[verse]
Why couldn't everything just go away
Knives pressuring me down, down, down
Should it be this hard to stay awake?
Or would no one notice if I just drowned
Out on the water, my mind is flooded
Every insult, from every day
It's all in my head, voices screaming
"Everything is your fault", they say

[pre-chorus]
Because the smiles hurt the most inside
Every word makes me feel a little older
I'm your solace, where is mine?

[chorus]
So I'm heading north, just heading north
Keep on running, don't stop to cry
Don't believe you have no worth
Every allegation is a lie
Just keep swimming, it's all you have
Don't let the pressure get to your head
Deeper, deeper, ditch the raft
Forgot who you are, there's no one left

[bridge]
Couldn't it just be over in a second
At the end of the torture, freedom beckons
Because somehow the smiles hurt the most inside
Im your solace, where is mine?

[chorus]
I'm heading north, just heading north
Barely running, tears falling
Maybe they're right, I have no worth
Stop telling myself that they're only lying
I can't keep holding my breath
The pressure is pushing me down the depth
I lost the raft long ago
Forgot who I was, I'm just alone

[outro]
Because somehow the smiles hurt the most inside
Can't be your solace, I gave up on mine

wow so emo(the next ones are also but more love related so look forward to me having a mental breakdown!!!)

yay