Finding My Way

Chapter 11

"Lord Kaname."

"Yes, Seiren?" Kaname said tiredly, looking up at her from the mess of papers he was sorting through on his desk.

"My lord, the Senate seems to be moving forward with their plans," Seiren reported in her straightforward manner.

Kaname sighed and closed his eyes. He might not be able to protect Yuki for very much longer, which made him incredibly sad. He wanted her to live a carefree life and had believed she would, until the Senate complicated matters.

"Very well. Let's make sure that we're completely ready for when the time comes," Kaname finally replied, opening his eyes to look at his unofficial bodyguard.

"Yes, my lord," said Seiren. "Will that be all?"

"Yes, thank you, Seiren." She nodded once and vanished.

Kaname stared at the place where Seiren had vanished into the darkness, filled with remorse that he might have to break his promise in order to protect the very person he held the most dear.

I'll be breaking a promise to keep another promise, he thought bitterly. If everything had gone the way he had hoped, he could have kept both promises just as he had been doing.

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As I watch the snow beginning to melt, I suddenly realize that spring has already come. Even though Yori still sleeps peacefully downstairs in our dorm, something woke me up earlier than normal. I'm not really sure what, but I just couldn't sleep so I decided to pull on my uniform and overcoat and watch the sun rise from my favorite balcony. Now, as I lean against the partial wall, I reflect on the past couple of months.

Honestly, I didn't know where the time had gone. Not a whole lot had really changed since January, except for the fact that Ruka and Akatsuki announced that they're a couple a few weeks ago. I had been wondering about it for a while, but my suspicions were confirmed when Hanabusa walked in on them making out in the room he shared with Akatsuki and proceeded to tell anybody who would listen to him. The whole school is still gossiping about it, both girls and boys alike from the Day Class lamenting the fact that the two gorgeous students are off the market.

Hanabusa seems to enjoy the added attention that the girls who normally favored Akatsuki now bestow on him. Of course, they haven't given up, but they find it pointless to pine over Akatsuki when Hanabusa so charmingly responded to their advances.

Kaname still accompanies me on my patrols, but he always carefully steers the subject away from the past whenever I try to bring it up. I'm getting really frustrated. It's almost April and I still haven't made any progress. I decide that I need to strategize a way to make him talk.

Maria and Zero seem to spend a lot of time together. I often find them talking or walking together across campus after the sun sets. I want to chastise Zero and tell him that it takes away his focus from patrolling, but I really like seeing him so happy and, also, I have no room to talk since I enjoy my walks with Kaname.

Today, everyone leaves for spring break and I'll be left here alone with Zero again. Most of my classmates really look forward to spring break, but I always miss having everyone around. I look over at the Moon Dormitory. I'll especially miss Kaname.

He still hasn't made any more romantic advances towards me since the roses, so I start to wonder again if it's all in my head. It's got to be, I tell myself. I'm just not suitable for him at all.

I sigh. I should probably stop thinking about Kaname. I should try to find a nice Day Class boy to think about. But, as I run through the faces of all the boys in my mind, I find myself comparing the other boys with Kaname. I sigh again. No one compares with Kaname.