poems, thoughts, and short stories

my depression

Depression a sadness to where you are numb You feel everything but nothing at all. You feel the walls closing in. You feel shattered and can't be put back together. You stay in bed for hours because just the thought of doing the stuff you need to do put you to sleep. You cry for days on end sometimes to where you cant cry anymore. You slowly start hating yourself. Doubting every single thing. Hide away because you don't want to face the people you feel like you disappointed even though you didn't. You feel everything crumple up and fall to the ground. You build walls to keep everybody out. You smile everyday hope no one sees through it. You over eat to fill the void where there is no emotion anymore or you starve yourself because your emotions are crushing you like a python. You want to just disappeared off of the face of the earth. Yes there is some suicidal people who don't kill themselves because they know that there is people they need to live for, but once there gone they go. You feel your sins crawl on your back even though you didn't do anything at all. You get anxiety attacks over the smallest of things sometimes. I bet you are wonder how I know all of this it's because I have MMD (major depression disorder). I know who it feel to want to jump. I know what it feels like to want to take a razor blade over your wrist. I know that therapy doesn't work for everyone. I know that the suicide hotline won't help, but if you need to talk to someone I am here and so is mentally dead is too or talk to your friends or family. Please don't not yet.....just talk to someone or write your feelings, draw, play music, make music,etc etc Just live for your family and friends. Ok