Am i unlovable?
That's a constant question i ask myself.
I've always been loved but never strong enough to feel it, oh how greedy that sounds. But if i was lovable would i do anything like this?
if i was lovable i wouldn't have to constantly overthink if im the one you need or questioning who's that pretty girl who's name usually rings something in your ear.
I wouldn't have to cry every night thinking about how you might hate me or love me, if you judge me or honor me, if you're annoyed of me or can't seem to get enough of me.
I wouldn't have to ask my friends if you're good for me and for them to tell me to leave, to run until i can't no more, to cut you off before you hold me tighter.
I wouldn't have to ask myself if you mean what you say, "you're annoying" or "i really appreciate you too vic" does it really come from heart or am i just a game like the ones you play while you lay on your bed waiting for my text.
If i was lovable i shouldn't even hesitate to make a move, so think. Am i unlovable?
YOU ARE READING
The things I couldn't tell you that night.
PoetryDon't feel enough- in your quietest moments but loudest thoughts, read this.
