Don't JUDGE me

BIRTHDAY

Mood: 😕

What is so special about this?

Does it really have to celebrate this kind of event?

How come nagkaroon ng ganito?

Ilan lang iyan sa mga katanungan ko that it left me thinking.

I mean, it is not that bad but out of curiosity.

I get that this is just once a year celebration.

I never know hanggang saan pa ba ang maabot nito lalo na in a spur of moment, puwedeng mahinto ito.

Kaya ganon na lang isinasakatuparan na magkaroon ng selebrasyon na ganito.

Ano bang use nito?

Bakit ko na kinukuwestiyon ang ganitong bagay?

Wala ba siyang kakuwenta?

I do not know.

Ang mangyayari lang naman, sa oras na maging 12:01 sa mismong araw na iyon, yung itinakdang day for you, then that means it is your espesyal na araw.

You get to have a plus one on your current age into your now latest.

It shows that you are all grown up.

Within how many years, you still get to share the same air with others.

Kaya nga tinawag na Birthday, kase it is your birth day.

The day you were birthed in this outside world.

Ang born day kase nailabas ka.

Kaya dapat lang na ito ay isang kaarawan.

But it still made me confused.

Hindi sa meaning nito or sa pangalan.

Pero kung deserving ba ng isang taong gaya ko ang maranasan ang ganito?

Does it feel surreal? Can be but it is something different.

Nararamdaman ko kaseng sa bawat ganito, I always questioning myself if may surprise bang magpapabago sa buhay ko.

I mean, yeah you get to identify the people who is true to you lalo na ang mga nakakatanda nang araw na iyon.

You can determine how old you are and what type, either the not legal or the other.

And such good delicacies, presents, that you will receive.

But why is that instead of happiness, naiiyak lang ako.

Naroon yung showing of your teeth, and raising of your eyes.

But the purity within it is not something that you may be able to show with sincerity.

Siguro, satisfaction is the right word na mayroon, pero yung abot-langit, that is vague to be exact.

Narito rin yung caring about your existence.

Was it somehow, para ba talaga sa iyo?

Hapi bertdey 2 u, is it really for me?

Matapos yung mga pasakit? Karapatan ko pa ba ito?

Minsan lang naman ito, then get over it.

You really do have an option whether to not remember it or finish the day dahil may ibang tao na kahit papano, nakakaalam.

At least there are ones like your family, God, and some persons who deeply have their attention on this one simple piece of information.

Tandaan mo, hindi mo naman pinapakalat sa iba ang birthdate mo hindi ba?