The dork

15 : Firsts

                                    Alex

Finally
It took forever but it's an epitome of perfection

Just as I wanted

I've been doing this for ages

Whenever I feel a rush of emotions, I channel it into something productive

Example this beautiful doll house in front of me

Which I will eventually burn

I dunno but seeing it go up flames just gives a certain sense of satisfaction

It's like I trapped everything in there and set it ablaze
I dunno but it always seems to give me inner peace

But if not anything the time has definitely given me space to think clearly

Jake is proud, arrogant and egoistic
Has an incredulously bad temper and doesn't miss an opportunity to taunt others
But he's most definitely not a liar

I know him well enough to have clearly seen the sincere emotions and guilt that flooded him

  Plus Britney is a bitch

All that being said Jake couldn't have done something like that to me
Even if he did, The moral compass in him that somehow shows up wouldn't have let him lie to me

So after everything I've finally convinced myself to go see Jake

Well more like being literally kicked out of my bedroom by Eli

  But eh whatever

Same theme different font

  I've missed him so much

And he came back at the exact time I needed him the most

Although I don't really understand the whole use of different surnames yet but I'm sure he'll clear me up later coz the Elijah I know is Elijah Miller but Jake's Elijah is Elijah Coleman

Eli and I have known each other for years and our level of friendship is priceless
Back then a lot of girls used to think we were dating and the fucker didn't even try to tell them that that will only be possible if we're both able to survive 24hours in a room together

It's not like we don't love each other

We do, very much
I know for a fact that Eli would fight for me no matter the circumstance which makes me always want to do the same for him

We love each other

But not that kinda love

Not like the kind I have for Jake

    Anyway I get to his place
And when the door opens I'm greeted by a beautiful young girl
should be about my age or a year older

" Good day miss" she says with a polite smile
" Hey um I'm looking for Jake "
" Please who should I say wishes to see him "
" Oh um Alex- "
" Oh miss Alex, please do come in "  okay what's up with the sudden change
" Mr Redman is upstairs in the gym"
" Thank you "
" Ur welcome ma'am " and with that she scurries away

Strange

I get to the gym

The door is slightly opened so I just walk in and lean on the door frame

And take my time to admire him

He's shirtless using some kinda pull up thingy which he's muscles tense and contracts when he lifts himself over the bar
I watch as his sweat trickles down his forehead, chest, abs and deep V finally disappearing into his sweatpants