hell from heaven

heaven

My personal diary

"The name of the constellation orion the hunter "
I give the answer they were seeking for but I don t know what was was going on with there mind they ask me question so I give answer so why they seem shocked ,I sit down on my bench and other students carry on at that moment I don't know what I was thinking but somehow this sentence stuck in my mind even if I try to forget I cant

Hello my name is suzan you already have guessed it is not my real name when I think about having a name it give me goosebump maybe I was given a name by someone but I abandoned it because I don't find it useful for my research oh bye the way I am researching on human nature. when I was in 2 th class I realizes humans is not someone as simple as we think some are simple yet so complex that you can't tell what is in there mind only thing which amused me in this boring world
February 14 2013 when I was in class 2 I was going to school in

bus but suddenly bus started to go in wrong direction everyone was feeling frightend what is going on some people stand up in front of bus and tries to calm child with gun at first I don't understand what is going on either I was interested a question come in my mind why ? this question change my mind why everyone is afraid I asked out of curiosity to our caretaker "why are you shaking" she replied me with fear in her eye "because they might kill us" all I wanted to ask what will happen after that but then I remember the story in which a lion died after a fight with witch I saw everyone faces they have same fears but with different expressions some of them were crying in fear some of them were in anger some of them were afraid for there family some of them were praying to god for different reasons but for same thing I don't want to die please save me
If I was god at that time I would probably ask why are you afraid of death it is your destiny my child
Cause it is definition of god we create says god is entity which make us and this world with different kinds of being god create everything and eventually at last everything every one believe those world at a point in there life even if you say you don't think there is something like god exist but deep down at a point in your life you want that god exist
And for me I don't care
I know that everyone believe god guide us till end that's all

Chapter 2 death of name

That day I remember some of them get up and say sit on your seat don't try to make noise otherwise I would have to use gun they were definitely  from another country there toung is not used to our language for sure Every one was surprised when the hijacker made request and police agreed everyone was thanking god for saving there life for listening to there request but suddenly hijacker started to take a look at hostages someone from bus asked "but police agreed to your requests then"" why we don't need bulletproof jacket if we have you "sudden terror on everyone face
They approach childrens like me one of them approached me at first I can feel my heart was in out of control at that time I undersand the feeling of fear but when he take me I was afraid but at the same time confused and feel betrayed because I saw sigh of relief in my caretaker eye and facial expression and other children who were my friend they take me and my friends were reliefed that they are not going to die they take me with them on helicopter at that point I was shocked not because of them but because of every person in bus they don't even tried to save me
After that police asked them to leave me but after some negotiation they agree now I think about it I understand I do some research on them they were naksal wadii who wants there leader freedom for there glorious purpose and they wanted me as a bait to take back there guns and explosives which were in under police
I only remember the voice of you , voice of van and sirens then police take me and send me back to my house which I think was not my house anymore
When my caretaker look at me she cried and hugged me like a tressure but it has no impact on me I meet my friend they tell me they are so happy that I come back alive I look at there faces and observe there expressions and give back the smile they wanted from me
I spend my 6 years there because I know if I go outside now I might not survive even though it was boring time period but I got a habit of reading not because I was a book worm but because I understand outside knowledge create a difference if you know how to use it . when I was in class 8 they ask me to choose a subject for coaching which will help me to achieve my dream at that time I chose science and told them I want to become a doctor they assume why but my why was a little different I wanted to become doctor to see how people react when they die