October 8th, 2023
Two Days Later
Ayariah Chanel Jackson-Anthony
Semaj been at my place for the past two days. He told me about his new tattoo shop that he finna open later this month. I'm happy for him to be honest. He doing more than most niggas at 23.
We laying in the bed with the boys, right now. A'sair sleep and Nezhai playing on his iPad.
"You always in my face"
"Be still" I flashed the light on his face.
Using the tweezers, I pulled an ingrown hair from his face. He flinched and pushed my hand away.
"That shit hurt bruh" he rubbed his jaw.
"Suck it up" I mumbled.
"What you hate about me?" Maj rubbed my back.
I'm laying on top off him and he on live. Lately he been going live a lot, but I don't care as long as A'sair not in the camera. I don't want everybody knowing what my baby look like.
"You friendly" I pulled another ingrown hair out.
"Ight you done" he snatched the tweezers from my hand.
"I- there's only one more" I sat up, straddling his lap.
"Fuck no, gone bruh" he tapped my leg.
"You being a crybaby"
Hearing knocking on the front door, I got up and picked up A'sair. After putting him in his room, I headed to the front door to see who it was.
"Bestiee" Deshun hugged me.
"Get your hands off me"
"Can I love my bestie since I ain't got a girl no more" he hugged me tighter.
"Nigga get off my girl" Maj said.
De backed off and held his hands up in surrender. I moved out the way so he could come in.
"What you want anyways?" I asked De.
"I'm hungry" he shrugged. "You cooked?"
"Yea, it's almost done"
"Good, I'm hungry too" Momo mumbled, walking in.
Cleo, Jo, and Eryss came too. I guess my apartment the new hang out spot. I don't even know if there's enough for all the asses.
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I just finished fixing a plate for De. I made him wait for his plate because he was being annoying and kept asking when it was gone be finish.
"I love you bestie" De tried to kiss me.
I backed up and hit him with the spoon. Maj pulled him by the back of his shirt.
"Fuck is you doing?" Maj yelled.
"That shit hurt man" De rubbed his arm.
"I don't care, get out"
"I was playing, chill" De held his hands up.
"You play to much. Do that shit again, ima shoot you" Maj pushed him.
"Bruh why I heard the frustration in yo voice" De laughed.
He play too much for his own good. Sometimes I don't know if he for real or not.
"You bout to get yourself fucked up" Eryss mumbled before putting a spoon full of macaroni in her mouth.
"He'll be ight" De shrugged and picked up his plate.
I'm about to start cleaning up the kitchen, while they ate.
"Leave it, Ima clean up" Maj spoke low enough just for me to hear.
He reached for the sponge in my hand, but I pushed his hand away, from the corner of my eye I could see him about to slam his phone on the counter.
"Slam it"
"I wasn't" he mushed my head.
"Yea you was"
"Go eat" he turned the faucet off.
I sucked my teeth. Although I haven't eaten since this morning, I'm not hungry. I just want to clean.
"I'm not hungry" I rubbed my nose with the back of my hand.
"You ain't eat all day, here" he put the spoon to my face.
"I don't want it"
"Shorty open your mouth" he squeezed my face.
I opened my mouth, allowing him to feed me. Just as I started chewing, I gagged.
"Swallow it"
I put the sponge and pan, in my hand, down. As I ran to the bathroom in the hall, I covered my mouth once I felt vomit coming up.
"Fam you good?" Maj asked.
Opening the lid to the toilet, I threw up.
"Shit" he pulled my hair back. "How the fuck you throwing up with a empty stomach"
Once I finished, I sat up and wiped my mouth. Maj has a concerned look on his face, but I can't even tell him how because I don't even know.
"You okay?" Eryss asked.
I nodded my head, "yea"
"You sure?" Maj licked his lips.
"I'm fine"
"Ima bring some water" Eryss said before walking away.
"Another cookie or you still sick?" Maj asked.
"I don't know"
"You tryna find out?" He lifted up my head.
I really don't want to be pregnant again. So much bullshit happened between us and I don't want to go through that again. But at the same time I wouldn't be surprised if I am. He never pulls out, so it's a big possibility that I am.
"No, I'll be fine" I sniffed.
"Here" Eryss passed Maj the water.
He opened the water, while keeping his eyes on me. Feeling it come up again, I leaned over the toilet.
I really hate life right now. If I'm pregnant, I'm about to be highly upset because I didn't go through this the first time.
