Poems (from the diaries of palestine)

a walk through the storm

Here I'm
I ended up here again
As expected
I'm trapped in the same circle
I don't even care to try anymore
I'll just give up, goodbye.

Once we fail to see eye to eye,
We forget everything precious to us.
We throw everything between us away,
And we are back to the starting point,
Hello, and now goodbye.

I finally decided to get up and keep walking,
I'm trying to reach the end of the tunnel.
I don't want to waste my life lost,
I don't want to keep running in circles, I wanna reach heaven at any cost.
So I look up and ask the stars for help,
I stop and make a Prayer.
I'll take a nap and wait for the answer.
And if None arrives I'll raise my hands and start again.

I finally hear a voice, so I run and start chasing after it .
The wind is taking it away, so I run faster.
I'll go as far as my fragile legs could take me.

I got lost again along the way.
I look up again but the sky is gloomy, it looks like a storm.
They keep saying to study more .
do your best, and keep working till you get sore.
But in the end, the ones who receive the congrats are always the ones who were never there .
But that's ok, they never said that it should be fair.

Am I fated to keep doing their work and smile in the back like a fool?
The fools who dance, the fools who watch, and the fools who laugh and whisper in the back.
They are all part of The same circus.

A whole generation of youths and their wasted dreams.
Carrying huge guilt over things that we couldn't control.
Shouldering the sins of our elders and ancestor.
I'm wondering, do we have to care anymore?

You cant even laugh about it.
Even if I wanted,
I can't find a joke that perfectly describes it
The disappointment that I feel,
It has a bitter taste,
Like a sour grape.

If you hate it here just say it.
One way or another you'll need to talk about it.
If you wanna leave just go ahead.
Or you'll spend your nights crying in your bed.
Just thinking about it won't do.
You have to take action and move.
Don't waste your life, you never know.
You'll probably regret it if you never improve.

I know, who am I to talk,
I'm only a loser who failed to get anything done.
But in a way, it makes me an expert,
So take my advice, and don't look for a better one.

Listen carefully to the wind.
Follow your path and Dont hesitate
To jump on the first train away from here, just go, don't wait.
Life will only throw a few chances your way.
Once one of those chances is within your reach
just grab it and don't you ever let go, that's what I wanted to say.

I'm a loser, at this point, I know it's not a lie.
One more time I look up at the sky.
If I keep wasting my time running in circles I'll run out of time.
If I keep wishing on a star, I'll just end up losing again.
I have no choice but to pray one more time.
I think I've gotten closer to the finishing line.
So please, my lord, grant me strength and sanity. to carry on with this life and face my reality.

And I keep going
And I keep running
After the voice that rides the wind into the future.
By leena mustafa 🌹