Is she struggling?

Chapter 2- Are you okay?

Lucy's POV
I woke up like any other day. I had got 5 hours sleep that's better than what I normally get. I don't even know the last time I got a full nights sleep. I get up  and get ready for the day. I throw on some jogging pants and a hoodie, I wash my face,brush my teeth, and brush my hair. I look in the mirror at my reflection and you can tell I'm exhausted. I put a little bit of make up on and grab a banana before heading out the door.

Once I get to the station I go straight to the locker room. I see people looking at me but I really don't care at this point. As I'm changing I see the scars on my stomach. I'm just zoned out staring at it until someone grabs my shoulder. I grab their arm and twist it around. Lucy, Lucy it's just me Angela, she says. I left go of her wrist and step back with my hand over my mouth, I'm so sorry, I didn't know it was you, I say with tears in my eyes. Hey it's okay you didn't mean to, you were zoned out okay, she says walking towards me. Stop I don't wanna hurt you, I say backing up. Lucy I don't care if you hurt me I just wanna know you're okay, she says stopping where she is. I'm fine I'm fine, I say as I put my shirt back on and walk out the locker room. 

I go to Greys office and knock on the door. Come in, he says. Everything okay, he says looking at me. Uhh could I get a personal day, I ask. May I ask why, he says. Personal reasons, I say with a shaky voice. Have a seat, he says. He closes his door and shuts the blinds while I sit down. What's going on Lucy, he says while sitting down. I just need a personal day, I say and my leg begins shaking. Lucy it's deeper than that you've been crying, he says. Grey I just hurt someone I deeply care about because I was zoned out I can't be here right now, I say with tears streaming down my face. He nods his head, take as much time as you need update me daily, he says. I nod my head and proceed to get up when he pulls me into a hug. We hug for about two minutes before he tells me to head home. I wipe my face before heading out of his office.

I walk quickly heading to the changing rooms because I don't want to have a conversation with anyone. I quickly change and leave the station. Once I open the door to my apartment all my thoughts flood my mind. "Was it really my fault" I kept thinking over and over again. I go to the bathroom and get my blade. I pull my pants down and start cutting. One cut turns into two. Two turns into three and three turns into four. After I'm done clean them up and bandage my legs. I get into bed and cry myself to sleep.

Angela's POV
I'm sitting at my desk thinking about what's going on with Lucy when I see her leaving out the station. I go to greys office to talk to him. Come in, he says. What can I do for you Lopez, he says leaning back in his seat. Question where's Lucy going, I ask. She's taking a personal day, Grey says. I'm worried about her, I say sitting down. You and me both did she tell you anything, he asks me. No but I walked into the locker room she was staring at her stomach in the mirror, her stomach is filled with old scars, and when I touched her shoulder she grabbed my arm and twisted it back, I say with a sigh. So you're the one she hurt, he says with a sigh. Yea then she started crying saying how she didn't mean too, what did she tell you, I say. She told me that she hurt someone she deeply cared about because she was zoned out and how she can't be here right now, Grey says. Tears started to fill my eyes, grey she's not okay and she won't ask for help, I say. Okay maybe we just need to clear her mind, he says. And how are we supposed to do that, I say. I'll plan something and let everyone know tomorrow, grey says with a smile. Okay well let's hope it works, I say with a smile as I head out of greys office.