Jay Halstead Oneshots

ED Part 1

hello1234577564 : Jay having an ed in a restaurant because Pat drilled into his skull that he should eat all his dinner or you'll sleep on the floor

TW: Eating Disorder, Purging
Will: Jay you got any plans tomorrow?
Jay: no why?
Will: we're going out for dinner for dad's birthday. Make sure you're there
Jay: okay
Will: I'll come and pick you up at 7
Jay: it's fine I'll drive
Will: I know what you're like. You're gonna get there and want to drink
Jay: fine
Will left and I just sat on the couch. I need to find a way to get out of this meal. I was so deep in thought that I didn't hear Hailey come in. She sat beside me and put her head on my shoulder
Jay: how was work?
Hailey: it was okay Hank was in a pissed off mood.
Jay: he always is
Hailey: you eaten?
Jay: yeah i had a sandwich and protein smoothie
I couldn't tell her the truth. I didn't want to disappoint her. I didn't want her to worry about me.
Hailey: you going to Hanks dinner tomorrow?
Jay: I don't want to but Will isn't giving me a choice
Hailey: why don't you wanna go?
Jay: I just don't feel like it
Hailey: but it's for his birthday
Jay: I know. There's no need to try and make me feel bad
Hailey: babe that's not what I'm trying to do.
Jay: just leave me alone
I went upstairs and laid in bed thinking of ways to get out of the dinner. Throw up? Migraine? Car trouble? No that won't work Wills taking me.
Hailey: Jay I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that
Jay: I know. I'm sorry for snapping at you
Hailey: what's going on Jay?
Jay: nothing
Hailey: is it about your eating?
I shook my head
Hailey: you can tell me baby.
I just nodded
Jay: I'm sorry
Hailey: that's why you don't want to go?
I just nodded again
Hailey: you will be in total control of what you eat
Jay: okay
Hailey: i don't want you to worry right now okay
Jay: I'm sorry
Hailey: what for Jay?
Jay: dads locked away and he's still hurting me
Hailey: you want me to get you an appointment with Dr Charles?
Jay: no
Hailey: what about Rachel?
Jay: no I can handle it
Hailey: you want anything for dinner?
Jay: no thanks
Hailey: how about a protein smoothie?
Jay: no
Hailey: baby I need you to have something
Jay: I can't
Hailey: I'll eat with you
Jay: okay
Hailey: food or smoothie?
Jay: smoothie please

Next day
I was getting ready for the dinner and Will arrived
Will: Jay you ready?
Jay: nearly
Will: we have to leave in 10 minutes
Jay: chill out Will I'm getting ready. I'll be ready when I'm ready. Chill the fuck out
I got ready and we went to the car and made our way to the restaurant. We were shown our table. After about 10 minutes Hank walked in with Justin and Erin. They sat down
Jay: happy birthday pops
Will: happy birthday dad
Hank: thank you boys
We got settled and a waiter came round for drinks. We all grabbed a beer. The waiter then came back down. Everyone ordered there food but me
Waiter: and what can I get you sir?
Jay: erm I'll just get a steak from the kids menu please
Waiter: that is for children under 12
Justin: that's his age mentally
Him and Will started laughing
Jay: I know it's just I'm not that hungry so only want a small portion
Waiter: I shouldn't do this but I'll put it through for you
Jay: thank you so much
The waiter walked away
Hank: you sure that's all you want Jay?
Jay: yeah I had a big lunch
I could feel hailey looking at me. I went to the bathroom and then sat back down. They were all talking and I was just zoned out trying to ignore my thoughts. It was mainly dads voice
Dad: you shouldn't be eating that much. You look fat. You best eat it all or you'll be sleeping in the basement
How does that make sense? If I eat I am fat but if I don't I get punished.
Hank: Jay?
Will nudged me
Jay: hmm
Hank: you okay?
Jay: yeah I'm fine
The waiter came round with our food. He gave me my plate and there was a lot of food
Jay: is this the kids meal?
Waiter: yeah
Jay: oh okay
Everyone was eating and I was just pushing my food around with my fork
Hank: Jay stop messing with your food. You're 23 not 2+3
Justin started laughing.
Jay: Justin shut the fuck up
Hailey: Jay
Jay: I'm going to the restroom

I got up and left. I was just staring myself in the mirror. Hailey walked in
Jay: you do know this is the men's bathroom right?
Hailey: you okay?
Jay: yeah I'm fine
Hailey: why don't you talk to them?
Jay: I don't want to worry them. They think I'm over it
Hailey: you need to talk to them baby
Jay: all I have to do is make it through this meal
Hailey: Jay
Jay: I've got it handled. Just leave it
I went back out and sat down. I had a few mouthfuls and I was full but there was a lot of food left.
Dad: you waste that food you're sleeping in the basement. I'll make sure you know what it's like to not have any food. You dumbass waste of space
I struggled to eat the rest but I did it and now I feel disgusting. I feel so heavy and gross. I can't go to the bathroom now because I don't have any gum so they'll be able to smell it on my breath. I have to deal with this feeling until I get home
Justin: we're getting dessert you want anything?
Jay: no thanks
Hank: you sure?
Jay: mhm
They had dessert and I was feeling worse by the second. I felt so disgusting and gross. I stood up.
Hank: you leaving?
Jay: nah I'm going to the bathroom
Will: I think we should get you seen for a bladder infection you're going to the bathroom a lot
Jay: shut up
Him, Justin, Erin and Will started laughing
Jay: you lot can just fuck off
Will: woah Jay we're only messing