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Chapter 16 - Trusting instinct

Friday, 15 December 2023

Song- Lost without you by Freya Ridings

Over the next few days, Rafaella found herself enveloped in a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions, each moment filled with the weight of Nicholas's proposition. The idea of stepping into a submissive role stirred within her a complex tapestry of feelings—excitement tinged with a hint of apprehension, curiosity intertwined with a deep-seated desire for exploration.

In the quiet moments between family time and daily routines, Rafaella's mind often drifted back to their evening together at The Bungalow. She replayed the scenes in her mind like a vivid movie, from the moment Nicholas handed her the bouquet of fresh flowers to the lingering taste of the whisky sour on her lips.

Nicholas had made her feel special, cherished even, with his attentiveness and the subtle ways he ensured her comfort throughout the evening and not just that evening, but every date they shared thus far. That was what drew her in, what made her consider the possibility of delving into a dynamic that promised both intensity and intimacy.

Yet, beneath the surface of excitement simmered a more profound introspection. Rafaella understood that becoming Nicholas's submissive was not just about exploring physical boundaries or satisfying fleeting desires. It was a commitment that demanded her full trust and vulnerability, a surrendering of control that went beyond the superficial.

Despite the allure, Rafaella was aware of the risks. Entering into a submissive role required a profound level of trust in Nicholas—and in herself. It meant navigating uncharted waters, exploring aspects of her identity that she had kept hidden or had yet to fully explore.

She sought solace in conversations with Chloe, whose unwavering support provided a comforting anchor amidst the storm of emotions. Chloe listened with empathy, offering perspectives that helped Rafaella see beyond her own uncertainties. "Trust your instincts," Chloe would say, her voice a steady reassurance. "If Nicholas makes you feel safe and cherished, then perhaps this is a path worth exploring."

As the days passed, Nicholas respected her need for space and time to deliberate. He sent occasional messages, gentle reminders of his presence.

In the quiet hours of the night, Rafaella would sometimes find herself gazing out at the moonlit ocean, its vast expanse mirroring the depths of her thoughts. She wondered about the future, about the possibilities that lay beyond the horizon.

On Friday morning, as she stood on the beach watching the sunrise, a sense of clarity washed over her—a quiet certainty that whispered of courage. She knew then that she was ready to take the next step, to explore the depths of her desires with Nicholas.

With resolve in her heart, Rafaella picked up her phone and began to type a message to Nicholas.

Her fingers hovered over the keyboard as she typed out her message to Nicholas: "Yes, I will be your submissive." Her heart raced as she pressed send, a mix of relief and nervousness flooding her.

A few minutes later, her phone buzzed with Nicholas's reply. "I'm thrilled to hear that, Rafaella. Unfortunately, I'm swamped with meetings today. Let's meet tomorrow and discuss everything. Take care."

Rafaella's initial excitement was quickly overshadowed by a wave of worry that surged through her. She had hoped for a more reassurance that that her decision was welcomed and understood. Instead, his abrupt message amplified her insecurities and doubts.

The weight of her choice hung heavy in the air around her. Had she acted too hastily? Should she have taken more time to consider the implications of her decision? These questions gnawed at her, feeding the growing sense of unease that knotted her stomach.