June 5th, 2013
Mr. Baker, the counselor here, believes that it's a good idea if I kept a journal, or a diary if you will, that will express all my thoughts and feelings. Every week he would like to read the entries and try to address the things I write about and when I finally fill all these pages up, he'll compare my early entries to my later ones to see if I was making any progress. I didn't know how I felt about that, someone invading my privacy, reading my thoughts.
I've only been here a week and I was already being forced to do something that I didn't really want to do, but I guess that's why everyone hated mental hospitals, huh? Nobody wanted help. Nobody wanted to believe that they were going crazy or insane. Why should I be any different?
The room that I was placed in fit two beds, a desk, and two dressers, which meant I was probably going to get a roommate soon. Did I really want one? I didn't think so, but at least they would keep my mind busy where my dark thoughts didn't come sneaking in to haunt me.
Well, it is currently one thirty-three in the morning. Lights were supposed to be off by midnight and I had to comply before I got my phone privileges taken away. Now I was writing this in the dark, hoping that my writing was readable since I could no longer see the lines on the page.
I guess I should have wrote an entry earlier, but I didn't have the energy to do so. I feel physically and emotionally drained. I know that me admitting that will soon come back to bite me in the butt, but I could care less.
Tomorrow was activity day. I will have to interact with the other patients whether I want to or not. Hopefully I meet someone that I can tolerate where I won't be alone all the time. I was sick of being alone. I was always alone.
I didn't want to be anymore.
Tyler Joseph, entry number one in Isle of the Flightless Birds.
Written on June 5th, 2013 at 1:33 am in pen
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Dementophobia • tyler joseph •
Fanfiction"Courtney, what do you fear? Do you have any fears?" "Dementophobia." "What does that mean?" "The fear of going insane." {ONCE WAS #207 IN FANFICTION}
