Shadow Heart

Chapter 22:Function

————Navia———-

That night I went to go sleep with the heart. I do have a bedroom but I only use it when people are over so I don't reveal the secret. Did I mention that I loved the heart yet. It's my greatest creation because well really it's another form of myself. We both share thoughts, feelings and opinions. It's like a massive heart shaped pillow that is also an emotional support. I told it all about our fight with Miu and about the big reveal.

The heart listened intently and tried to comfort me. It always helps me when I'm feeling down. Its slow rhythmic beats on my body helped me calm down as well as the way it talks to me. It talks in this soft sweet voice almost like a lullaby. It always makes me sleepy.

"Big sis. Don't get too upset over it. Even if you didn't defeat the light you defeated one of the lights biggest warriors. Look I know you think that you're a failure but you're not. Well at least not a total failure."

A small smile formed on my face as I let out a light chuckle. It was telling the truth. Whenever I do something wrong it feels like I've let my people down. I'm supposed to protect them. I had promised my people that I would win the war and I struggled so hard against Miu. If I barely beat her with the help of Athena then how could I beat Palutena.

"Little sis. You don't understand. All you do is stay there and power the kingdom. I have to spend day after day doing everything I can to keep my people safe. To keep them free from the angels control. I isolate myself. I hide massive secrets."

While saying that a few tears fall down my face. Everyone looks up to me and relays on me and that might I broke my entire kingdom trust because I said that I will defeat Miu and save Lucifer but in the end I only did one of those things.

"Big sis. You did a lot. I understand. Imagine if one of the angels defeated Athena or Lucifer. You would be weak and vulnerable not to mention the grief you would be feeling. That's what's happening to the angels now you defeated Miu."

"You're right."

Then something unexpected happened. Athena burst into the room. I tried my best to cover the heart but it was so big that she saw it anyway. My biggest secret discovered. Just like that. I trust Athena but i don't know if I can trust her with my kingdom. I don't know if I can trust anyone with my kingdom.

"Navia what's the big heart thing."

Of course she had to ask. How the hell do I explain it to her. I was in a state of panic. My mind was going blank and yet was overwhelmed at the same time. Eventually I try to explain it to her.

"Um so you know how I'm like darkness."

"Yeah. Of course I do that's how I met you. I was the fire and you were the darkness."

That was very true. You see back then there was nothing. It was just me. The nothingness. The darkness. Until one day there was a spark. A tiny flame. It told me its name was Athena. Then we became friends. We were so close. The fire and the darkness. Then when the world developed we started using vessels. Yes Athena does use vessels like me but it's her personal secret that only I know.

"Well um this is the darkness as well just in a different way. It pumps out pure darkness and makes us able to be free. It's like me but not me. So I call it my sister. You weren't supposed to come in here."

This confuses Athena even more. But on the other hand the heart was beating faster than ever before. That was because it was excited to meet a new member of the family.

"Why didn't you tell me Navia. I thought we didn't keep secrets."

This made me feel even more guilty. I'm just a failure of a queen aren't I. My people don't deserve me my friends didn't deserve me. I keep making promises to people that I can't keep no matter how hard I try. So I storm out the room to my actual bedroom away from Athena. Away from the heart. Away from everyone. I close the door behind me and simply cry into my pillow my tears running down my face. Im worthless. Why am I a goddess. I just make situations worse for everyone. Nxy hates me for not being able to save Gumi. Athena hates me for hiding something from her. Lucifer hates me for not allowing him to fuck me.

I try to protect everyone. I try to help. But in the end I'm still not perfect. No matter how hard I try.