We found us | Book 1

But what if...?

Evi:
"How do we fix this? Can we fix this?" I ask him, a little crack audible in my voice as I speak.

"I love you." He says and looks into my eyes.
"I love you." I say softly, almost whipering.

"But what if-" I swallow the lump in my throat.
"is it enough?"
"It has to be." Bill says as he gets up from my bed and walks towards me.

The desperation in is voice is something he can't hide.

He grabs my hands, gently, pulling me closer to him.

Nick:
I ring the doorbell and nervously wiggle back and forth.

A smile appears on my face when she open the door and I see her beautiful brown eyes staring back at me.

"Ready for our date?" I say and I extend my hand to her.
"I'm ready." She says, smiling back at me with the most beautiful smile I have ever seen.

We sit down at the little restaurant.
We just ordered our food and I ordered us a nice bottle of red wine.

"Thank you for the flowers." Brenda says. "You didn't have to do that."
I notice a little pink blush on her cheeks and I look at her with a loving smile. "You deserve it."
I grab her hand and gently squeeze it.

Evi:
We talked for hours, not really going anywhere. But at least we are finally honest with each other. We finally said everything that needed to be said. Finally there are no more secrets.

I put my head on his chest and breath out deeply. "Maybe we will be okay."

His fingertips caress my arm, gently.
"I should go home." He says softly.
"Or you could stay?" I lift my head a little and look at him.

"You want me to stay?"
I nod. "Yes, please."

I bury my face into the crease of his neck and pull him closer to me.
I take in his familiar scent and breath out slowly.

We both fell asleep hugging each other and slept till 10 in the morning.

"Morning." He says with a hoarse voice, his eyes still closed.
"Morning." I say as I slowly open my eyes and look at his sleepy face.

I press a little kiss on his cheek and tilt my head a little to look at him. I see his lips curl into a smile and he opens his eyes a little.

"Should I get us some breakfast? And coffee?"
"Sounds nice." He says, closing his eyes again.

I get up from the bed and leave the room, running downstairs, into the kitchen.

"Morning." Nick greets me and I startle a little.
"I thought you already left?"

"I have a day off." He says while he takes a big sip from his coffee.

Shit. I think to myself. How will I get enough food for me and Bill into my room without Nick noticing?
We'll have to share I guess.

I start making our breakfast.
Two sandwiches and some yoghurt.

I take the biggest mug I can find and fill it up to the top with coffee.
I usually drink it with milk, but Bill likes his coffee black, so I guess I'll drink black coffee today.

I take everything and walk past Nick.
"Are you gonna eat all that?" He says before I can leave the kitchen.

"What can I say, I'm very hungry."
I quickly go upstairs and close my door behind me.

"You don't want coffee?" Bill asks me as he looks at the big mug of coffee I hold in front of him.
"Nick is home. He can't know you are here. He will kill you!"

"I'm sure it will be fine." Bill says and takes a sandwich in his hand.
I look at him with a grin on my face.
"I think you are way to confident. He already kicked your ass one time, he will do it again no problem."

"I thought you didn't like black coffee?" He changes the subject.
"I don't, but you do. I can drink black coffee, it's fine."

After we finished our breakfast and coffee we laid in bed together.
My head resting on his shoulder, my fingertips gently stroking his chest.

We didn't really talk much, at all. We just laid there in silence, enjoying each others company.

"I have to go." Bill whispers and I open my eyes.
"I know, but I don't want you to leave."
I sigh deeply and tilt my head up a little.

I press my lips on his and he kisses me back.
He puts his hand on the back of my neck, pulling me closer to him.

I open my mouth a little hesitantly, and as if he can read my mind he does the same.

I feel my breathing accelerate and my heart rate increases.

Way to fast for my liking Bill stops the kiss, his lips barely touching mine, both panting.

His hand caresses my cheek and we look into each others eyes.
"I really-"
"have to go." I finish his sentence. "I know."