"i cant love you..." --------JEONGCHAN FF

{CHAPTER 16}--long two years--

The sleepover was fun but they all crashed at around 4 AM and slept all day. Jeongin was the first day wake up at like 2 PM. He got up and walked to the kitchen so he wouldnt wake his friends up.
Jeongin's phone rang and he saw chan was face timing. he smiled and then answered it. "hey, baby!" Chan said happily. "hey..." Jeongin said tiredly. "you look like you just woke up..." Chan said with a chuckle.
'i did a few minutes ago, I'm at Jisungs house... we all had a sleepover and stayed up until like four AM..." Jeongin explained. "you shouldn't have stayed up that late because now you wont be able to sleep during the night..." Chan scolded his boyfriend.
"yeah, yeah..." Jeongin smiled. "just because I'm not there doesn't mean you can stop taking care of yourself..." Chan said. "I know, I know..." Jeongin sighed. "your so beautiful..." Chan said suddenly. jeongin smiled and blushed.
"don't say that, your making me blush~" jeongin said looking away. "good... I don't know what I'm gonna do now that we wont be able to fuck every night...." Chan said with a frown. "me either..." Jeongin said with a shrug. "hm, phone sex..." Chan admitted.
"what's phone sex?" Jeongin asked raising an eyebrow. "I would like to say that your innocent but you are not...." Chan said shaking his head with a sigh.
"please, tell me?" Jeongin asked with puppy-dog eyes. "fine... its basically like... basically we would be on FaceTime and I guess jerk off to each other and act like we're having sex with each other...." Chan explained.
"uh, no thank you...." jeongin laughed. "yeah, yeah.... I GUESS i'll wait until you come visit me... When will that be?" Chan asked. "I don't know, maybe a few days?" Jeongin thought. "well, just let me know beforehand so that i can be ready..." Chan said with a smile.
"i will, god... I really miss you..." Jeongin said sniffling. "i miss you too my love...." Chan said. "are you gonna be free to call every night? i know you'll start getting busy with college work when the year begins again..." Jeongin said.
"i will always make time for you baby...." Chan said. "ok, me too..." Jeongin said with a sweet smile. Chan smiled back. "I have to go now though, Ana is giving me a tour of the campus soon... I will call you later...." Chan said.
"ok, I love you..." Jeongin said. "I love you too, my love...." Chan said before he hung up.
Jeongin sighed and rested his head on the counter. Jisung walked in. "you ok?" Jisung asked as he sat down next to jeongin.
"yeah..." Jeongin sighed. "you miss cha..." Jisung guessed. "yeah, I really do... even though I was just on call with him...." Jeongin sat up and sighed. "I miss Minho too...." Jisung said. "yeah... soon i'll be all alone because you guys will be going off to college when I'm a senior..." Jeongin whined as tears pricked his eyes.
"hey, it'll be ok.... You'll make other friends...." Jisung said with a reassuring smile. "but its not the same...." Jeongin said as tears streamed down his face. "hey, its ok...." Jisung said as he hugged jeongin.
Jeongin hugged back and started sobbing. Jisung rubbed circles on jeongins back and sighed. "you'll be ok, I know how you feel...." Jisung said as he sniffled now his emotions kicking in. jisung missed his boyfriend so much like jeongin misses chan.
A couple minutes pass by and the two pull away and wiped their tears. Hyunjin, seungmin and Felix walk in all rubbing their eyes. "hey, guys.... what time did you two wake up?" Felix asked. "20 minutes ago..." Jeongin said. "about 10 minutes ago..." Jisung said.
"damn... I want to go back to bed, lets go seungmin... We're going to my house..." Hyunjin said as he grabbed Seungmin's hand and walked out.
Felix, jisung and jeongin rolled their eyes. "so, changbin broke up with me before he left for college..." Felix said out of nowhere and Jisung and jeongin look at him with wide eyes. "why didn't you say anything last night!?" Jisung asked.
"I didn't want to ruin our friends night with my problems..." Felix said looking down with tears threatening to spill. Jeongin and Jisung pull Felix into a group hug and Felix started sobbing. "why would he do that?" Jeongin asked.
"h-he said that i-i would be b-best.... B-because he cant d-do long distance!" Felix sobbed. "there's this thing called fucking visiting!" Jisung yelled clearly pissed off at changbin now. "i-i don't k-know..." Felix said.
"its ok, lixie... we're here for you..." Jeongin said as he rubbed Felix back. "i-i wont know i-ig he wants m-me back when i-i see him at college n-next year..." Felix stuttered in between sobs. "its ok, you deserve better anyways..." Jisung said as he and jeongin pulled away from Felix and Jisung wiped felix's eyes.
"i-im sorry..." Felix said. "sorry for what?" Jeongin asked. "f-for crying like this, i-its just a boy..." Felix said as he wiped his eyes. "its ok, you don't have to apologize, he was the best guy in your life, we understand... you spent a good 5 months with him and that's all that matters, just talk to him next year..." Jeongin said as he patted felix's head.
Felix sniffled. "ok..." Felix said. "now, I should go because my aunt is probably waiting for me.... I'll see you guys later, ok?" Jeongin said. "ok, see ya!" Jisung said with a smile. Felix gave jeongin a weak smile.
jeongin patted felix's head and hugged Jisung and then he left. He went to his and chan's house and grabbed his suitcases and stuff and called a cab to come get him. The cab came within 15 minutes and dropped him off at his aunts house.
He walked up the steps and knocked on the door. his aunt opened the door and when he saw him, she grabbed him by the arm and dragged him into the house and slammed the door. "where the fuck were you?! you were supposed to be here last night!" Jeongins aunt yelled and jeongin sighed.
"I was at Jisungs house having a sleepover with him, Felix, suengmin and Hyunjin because our boyfriends left for college...: Jeongin said casually. "if you are gonna be living under my roof you will NOT have a boyfriend! you fucking fag!!" Jeongins aunt yelled.
"then, I guess I'm leaving...."Jeongin said with a shrug as he shuffled his way back to the door. "wait! just stay, whatever! just know, your life will NOT be easy when your living here!" Jeongins aunt yelled and jeongin rolled his eyes.
"ok..." Jeongin said before walking up the stairs and going to his new room that he used to stay in whenever he stayed with his aunt.