Because Of You (Elizabeth Olsen x Fem G!P Reader)

49. A Good Place

Y/N POV

"Who is Jordan?" I asked Lizzie as I looked at the text that came through on her phone and she turned to me with a shocked expression, but it turned calm in a matter of seconds making my eyes narrow slightly, I wasn't trying to snoop on her phone I was just tryna get these rewards for a game I was playing.

"She's.. a friend." She said and I just pressed my lips together and nodded, I wasn't gonna look at the messages I believed her, (I think), and if I looked at the messages it would be like I didn't trust her.

I put her phone back down and laid back in my starfish position, she was getting ready to leave again and I had to mentally prepare myself for the day I was to spend with my mom.

I didn't know what it was or what happened between Lizzie and me but it felt like there was distance between us since she got back and I hated it, I just wanted her back and not feel like she was anywhere but with me when she was here with me.

I didn't even bring up marriage like I wanted to because it felt so awkward between us, the last time I remember it feeling like this with her was when we were still trying to work things out after Jess and I broke up, and I hated it even more because we were great, and in a good place and now it feels like it's gone.

I blinked as Lizzie stood over me, the look in her eyes I knew that was only reserved for me and her hand rubbed my cheek. "I love you." She whispered and leaned down to kiss me, and I smiled thinking about the Spider-Man kiss.

"I love you too," I whispered, and she smiled kissing me again, it was these little moments that made me not even want to think about the distance that was so obvious between us and just embrace the present moments. I stood up from the bed and went into the bathroom to turn on the shower, Lizzie came in after me and I furrowed my brow. "You joining me?" I asked her taking off my shirt she took a deep breath but shook her head now looking guilty. "You alright?"

"I uh.. I met someone in San Diego and.." I pressed my lips together and looked at the ground, a deep sigh leaving my mouth. "I didn't do anything!" She said quickly but I crossed my arms over my chest. Then why lie? "I just.. 'Jordan' is who I met and I wanted to tell you but I didn't do anything with her but we're friends! And I wanted to tell you so you know.. and.. that's it."

Why did she have to lie about that? I don't care that she meets new people or makes new friends good for her but she lied to me, and I still don't understand why she wasn't answering her phone I'm just confused about this whole thing.

I rubbed my hands over my face, and sighed why was she telling me nothing happened? It's like she wants me to think it and now I am so now I'm just gonna be fucked the whole day thinking about it.

"Y/N?" I moved my hands and hummed. "You okay?"

"Mhm," I said turning away from her, I just needed a minute maybe ten.. or an hour maybe five. "I need to shower," I told her, making a silent motion to the door and her mouth opened and closed before she stepped out. And I stared at the door.

Why did this have to happen? Especially when I start thinking about marriage and everything else, why now?

We were in a good place and now.. I don't know where we are.

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I couldn't do it, I couldn't spend time with my mom 'cause my mind was on Lizzie and I didn't want her to be- for the first time I wanted to think of anything but her, and I couldn't.

Everyone single fucking thing I did made me think of her, whether it be making breakfast for Fatman I thought of all the times we cooked breakfast for him together, even sitting out back made me think of her, thinking about the times we spent out there with Fatman, every room in this house reminded me of her so I had to get out, Calvin had taken my family somewhere I wasn't really listening to him and I went to some park.

I couldn't help but think I was overthinking this whole thing, what if I was? I had no reason not to trust her and here I was overthinking everything, she made a new friend so what? That's great for her, I shouldn't feel threatened by that and for some stupid reason I do, I don't even know the person and I feel this way it's so stupid.

I love Lizzie and I know she loves me and I know she wouldn't do anything to hurt me and I wouldn't to her (again) but why can't I let it go? She told me nothing happened and I should trust her word but why did she even feel the need to tell me nothing happened? All she needed to say was she made a friend not 'nothing happened' because now I think something happened.

I put my head in my hands and sighed. 'It's okay, nothing happened.' Nothing happened I told myself hoping somehow I could convince myself.. convince myself of what? I don't know. But maybe it would stop me from feeling this way and that would be great.

It didn't help that Lizzie was now miles away from me so even if I wanted her comfort; I don't, (I do) I couldn't have have her right now, and I'm so pissed that even when I felt all these different emotions about all the shit that's happened I still wanted her, wanted her holding me just everything always came back to her.

I took my head out of my hands and blew out a breath, I started walking down the trail hoping anything would take my mind off of her even for a moment, I would drive myself crazy if I kept thinking about it.

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