But I Love Him // choi jisoo (#32)

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Julia

Choi Soobin looked at me in the eye and he let out a sigh. "Julia, I like you and I want to let you know that I have liked you for a very long time and I didn't say it because I thought that you liked my friend so I had to pretend that I didn't like you."

Why is he confessing to me all of a sudden? My mind was out of it for a second when I heard those words coming out of his mouth and I thought that I would never hear those words coming from a guy whom I thought that he would never have feelings for me.

He is Daeyeon's friend, his best friend for almost all of his life and they have been together for most of the time and now they are cold towards each other and it is because of me. I knew that they had a fight earlier when Soobin went over to take my belongings.

My luggage has always been packed as if I am ready to leave any moment and it came into convenience at this time because it would be hard for me to pack my stuff if everything is all over the place and Song Daeyeon is there, preventing me to leave and I don't want him to hold onto me.

"Soobin," I paused for a moment as I searched for the words in my head but there is nothing in my head because I was totally not expecting this at all.

"I am just saying this because it has been on my mind the whole time, it was supposed to be my deep dark secret that I will carry it all to my grave but it turns out that I didn't have to after all." He licked his lips nervously. "You don't have to answer me to be honest, you can just take it as me mumbling about something silly."

Soobin is a great person, he is very royal towards his friend and he can't stand injustice. He has all the qualities that Song Daeyeon doesn't have and that makes him different from Daeyeon. But I don't see him in that way, he is just a friend to me and I appreciate that he is there for me right now but I don't think that there will be anything else between the two of us.

"You don't have to say anything to be honest," He laughs awkwardly. "I am sorry for dumping all of that nonsense on you so you don't have to think too much about it."

We arrived at the hotel in no time and he got my luggage while I checked in the room, and I grabbed the key from the counter. I had initially wanted to return back to my parent's place but it is late at night and it would not be good to disturb them at this timing and I would return home the next morning, it is my only choice and it is so much better than doing everything on my own.

We made our way to our room and he places down my luggage and he made sure that there isn't any hidden cameras in the room. "This room is safe for you to use and the phone works fine."

"Thank you for making sure of that, Soobin." I said to him as I sat down on the bed.

"Then I will make my way, get a good night rest." He said to me. "Don't worry about Daeyeon, I didn't kill him before getting out of the house. He is fine."

I chuckled at his little joke. "I know that you won't, you are his best friend. There is no way that you would kill him that easily."

He gave me a little wave before leaving the room and I could finally let out a sigh, that little joke of his really made my day and it was what I needed after a long day of dealing with my breakup and I feel so much better.

Soobin is really someone that I don't deserve and he deserves someone better to love than someone like me, it would make my parents like him because his parents are currently working with them and it is a great way to forge better relations between the two Chois but I would rather want him to like someone else.

I stayed in the bathroom for a long time, just sitting in the bathtub pondering over my thoughts over and over again before I decided that it was enough for me and I got out of the shower and I laid down on the bed and my body gave out.

I opened my eyes again and it was morning, a new start to my life and I don't know if I am ready to face it, Song Daeyeon is not my boyfriend anymore and I am single again. And I have his best friend confessing to me out of the blue...

I left the hotel room at noon and I immediately made my way to my parent's place and the servants were shocked to see me come back to the house and my mother was there as well, and she looked indifferent when she saw me and I just wished that she would hug me and comfort me but I know my parents, they are one of the most nonchalant people that I have ever known and I should become like them so that I wouldn't get hurt so easily.

I saw my father in the evening when he got home from work and he did the same thing as my mother but he ordered the chef to cook my favorite dishes and we ate dinner as a family of three for the first time in 6 months, it is a rare occasion and it is needed for my return back to the household.

My father called me to the study after dinner and he gave me a huge envelope and I opened it, revealing a brochure to Harvard university, and a plane ticket with my name on it and it is supposed to be in 2 days.

"I am sure that you know that we are currently working with the Choi group and you are expected to be taking over the company very soon, so go to Harvard and return back with a business degree. I know that you won't decline the offer and I am just informing you about it." He says to me.

This is my chance to get away from everyone for a while and I don't want to waste it... I nodded my head. "Thank you for believing in me, I will do you proud as your daughter." I said to him.

I decided to only tell Minhee because she can keep my secret and she isn't Song Daeyeon nor Choi Soobin, my secret is safe with hers and I will be able to study there peacefully without anyone disturbing me. She was there the day I left for Harvard and she told me that she will come see me during the holidays, and we would always keep in touch.

About Song Daeyeon, he is a part of my past and I don't want to revisit it again, especially with what happened this time. We were just not meant to be together and we will never be, no matter how I try to save it, there is no happy ending for the both of us.

Choi Soobin on the other hand, was a total surprise to me and I don't know how to feel about it. Maybe I am not made for relationships and I am destined to be on my own... But who knows that somewhere in the future, I will be able to figure out what I truly want...

End of Book 1