Gavi & Pedri imagines

Don't leave me behind- Pablo Gavi

Out of all the parts of dating a famous footballer my least favourite part is going to events. It's not him always being away, the missing important things like birthdays or anniversaries or the hate from fans on social media. I can cope with those things as I knew what I was signing up for when I went on a first date with Pablo but I will never like going to events. I did know that going to events with him might be part of our relationship but we agreed that if he wanted me to go I needed to know about it in advance and he had to stick by my side as much as people all night. My reasoning for this is that I hate big crowds of people I always have and always will it gives me awful anxiety and I've been known to have panic attacks if I get too overwhelmed. Pablo knows this and usually he's really good about making sure I feel comfortable at events when he asks me to come with him which he doesn't always do if he knows he can't be by my side for most of the night. 

Tonight is one of the events Pablo has actually invited me to. He told me about it a few weeks ago so I've had time to prepare myself which was much needed as we are going to a very busy event but it's an important one which is why Pablo asked and I agreed to go. There is going to be a lot of people there but Pablo assured me he'd stay by my side as much as he could and he said that a few of the other guys would be there and would look out for me when he's not around. Hearing him say that eased my anxiety a bit but still I've been trying to psyche myself up to go to this event but I never want to let Pablo down and tonight is important to him so I'll be there. 

Most of the time the events I go to with Pablo are just things Barcelona put on but tonight is different there will be a lot of journalists and cameras there. I can cope with that but I certainly can't just wear what I have in my wardrobe like I usually would so I got a dress especially for tonight and new makeup as all of mine is either old or broken as I just don't use it. If I was going to be seen by a load of people I felt like I at least needed to look the part of Gavi's girlfriend even if it's not the real me. I must say that by the time Pablo yelled from downstairs to say that the car was there to pick us up I looked good, my hair and makeup were perfect and the dress I chose fit me like a glove. 

"The cameras are going to love you looking that hot" Pablo joked when I came downstairs so we could get in the car that's taking us to the event

"That was my aim" I laughed 

"Seriously you look gorgeous that dress really makes your eyes pop" he complimented 

"Thank you it's all a bit out of my comfort zone but it felt more appropriate than jeans" I said 

"You are probably right on that one but you know it doesn't matter what anyone else says about you I love you the way you are even if you do look extra beautiful this dressed up" he said 

"Good because I'm never wearing these heels again they are so uncomfortable" I laughed 

"I guess I'll be carrying you home then" he joked 

It wasn't long before we arrived and immediately I could feel the colour drain from my face seeing how many people there was on the red carpet but also filming and interviewing people. I knew there would be a lot of people but I didn't expect there to be this many. My hands were already starting to shake until Pablo grabbed them and kissed my temple to reassure me that he was right there. We walked down the carpet and had pictures taken of us and Pablo did a few interviews before we went inside where there only seemed to be more people. 

Before I knew it Pablo had left my side and was talking to someone I didn't know across the room. I thought I'd just make my way over there as I could see Pedri not far from Pablo so then I'd have two people I'm comfortable with close by. Quickly the gap I planned to walk through closed in around me so I was surrounded by people with no way out. I tried to keep myself calm by focusing on my breathing but that didn't help all it did was make me realise that my breathing was getting more rapid by the second. Before I could do anything else to calm myself it was too late I was having a full blown panic attack. I had no other option than to push a few people out my way and find the nearest exit to get some air and calm myself down. My first thought once I was calming down was to text Pablo but after 20 minutes he hadn't even read my text so I just got an Uber and went home. There was no way I could go back in there and he wasn't coming out to me so I just went home and sent another text to let him know so if he ever remembered I existed he wouldn't be freaking out.