HOE

✨Life Update + Checking In✨

Hiiii guysss *walks in awkwardly waving*

I've been getting a few questions about how I've been, where I've been, etc cause it has been 5 yearsss and ik I just dipped without saying much 😭 so here is a brief synopsis of the last 5 years.

Summer 2019 I moved out of my grandmother's place into a 2 bedroom apartment with my sister. It was a huge accomplishment for us because we didn't have any help. I was busy getting settled in, and whatnot. I reconnected with a friend from high school and we started dating. I ended up starting a new job in January of 2020 that paid more than my current job at the time. And of course we know the pandemic hit us hard asf in March 2020. I was working in a multi specialty clinic at the time in the optometry/ophthalmology dept and I was transferred to work downstairs scanning ppl in and checking their temps. My hours got cut temporarily and I was forced to use PTO to make up for the lost hours so it sucked all around.

I also went through a spiritual awakening in 2020 and it literally shifted my entire worldview. I don't talk about it much but I was brought up a Jehovah's Witness and if y'all know anything about that religion it's a very us vs them mentality and it isolates you from the world. Your whole life and social network is tied up in the religion because it's a cult. Realizing I grew up in a cult fucked me up badly 😩😭 bc I went through some fcked up shit bc of that religion. I made the decision I didn't wanna be apart of that anymore and I left it all behind. I lost all my friends and a majority of my family didn't talk to me for a long time. It sent me into a deep depression even though I knew I wasn't doing anything wrong. Even now it still fucks with me, but I've done the work to heal from that experience. I'm still healing from it.

My mother was released from prison in early 2021 and paroled to me and my sisters place. She served a 12 year sentence. I was in the 7th grade when she was first sentenced so that alone was a big change and a lot to process and work through.

2021 I got married on Christmas Eve in Vegas. I also adopted my first dog from the shelter. Because my husband is military I made the decision to leave Houston and move to Kansas to be with him (March 2022) because the distance was really fucking with us. It was a culture shock. I'm a city girl at heart and Kansas is so dusty and so are the ppl. At least the part we're in. I had a hard time adjusting to the military life and being away from everything that I once knew. It was also hard to make friends out here because ppl are messy and miserable who thrive on drama.

I hated my new job bc everyone was clique-ish and there was a lot of mean girl energy going around. It just wasn't good for my mental health trying to adjust to a new area and ppl. I eventually got a work from home job in February 2023 and that's what I've been doing ever since. I would say the time between that life was just life-ing. I was trying to figure myself out as a young black girl navigating this world.

I was away from home, away from what was familiar, in a new town, new job, and newlywed etc.  I feel more settled in and adjusted but it was definitely a challenge at the time.

As I've mentioned before, writing just wasn't fun anymore. I lost the love for it. That spark I felt while diving into the lives of the characters I would create in my mind just wasn't there anymore.. I was stuck in a creative block for a long time because there was some underlying trauma I was avoiding that I had to confront.  Thankfully I've come out on the other side of that 🥹🙏🏾

If you wanna connect on socials, my personal IG is k_zeresh. I follow back. If I haven't followed you back, pls let me know and I will. Anyways how are y'all? I hope all is well. I know life has changed a lot for you guys as well. I'm sure some of you have graduated high school or college, moved to a new city, had children, gotten married, started a new job, etc. Whatever it is, I hope you're giving yourself grace as we all navigate this thing called life 🙏🏾✨

The next update ✨Crash Out✨ will be posted tomorrow @ 5pm CST. Currently working on finishing up the last part of the chapter.