choosing her is enough to live

goodbye/hello

hello guys! it's been a while since my last update. sobrang hectic ng schedule.
but since nandito ko sa waiting area ng workplace ni laurenze mag update muna ko.:)

BTW si gail po yung nasa photo.:) hindi si manong ah.:)) yungnakacolorblue then green po.

yan yung time na naghiking kami.:)

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Lou's POV:

Sobrang bigat ng pakiramdam ko habang naglalakad papalayo kay laurenze.
parang hinihila ko ng mga paa ko pabalik sa kanya pero hindi naman matake ng puso ko na hindi ako tumupad sa usapan namin ni gail.

Huli na talaga ang lahat dahil ng makapagdecide ako na bumalik ay sobrang lapit ko na kay gail.Well last naman na to kaya ok lang siguro.

Mabilis niyang kinuha yung kamay ko at inalalayan ako papasok sa car niya.

"Mukhang ayaw ka payagan ni kumander ah" bungad n sabi ni gail. Halatang medyo disappointed siya dahil matagal ko siya na pinaghintay sa labas.

"Hmm hindi naman maayos naman kami nagusap and besides hindi pa naman kami."
pagdedepensa ko. But deep inside my heart parang unti unti akong kinukurot ng konsensya ko.

Hindi ko maalis sa isip ko si laurenze dahil simula ng umalis ako ng bahay ay hindisiya nagpaparamdam. Hindi ko na din makontak ang phone niya.
So it means na sobrang nagtatampo siya.

"mukhang malalim iniisip mo ah. wag mo isipin yun mahal ka nun" medyo inis na sabi ni gail.

Hindi nako sumagot pa, i just smiled back.

Nagpatuloy lang kami sa aming byahe at nagusap ng tungkol sa kung ano ano.
Nasabi din niya na,she mentioned daw to her team mates na girlfriend niya ang kasama niya. (Well nakakaproud,sa ganda at sexy ba naman niya, pero bigla ako nakaramdam ng kaba at ng konting tuwa)

Habang papalapit na kami sa venue unti unti na akong kinakabahan. lalo na nung hinawakan na niya yung kamay ko.

"Basta chill ka lang and enjoy the day" nakangiting sabi niya

"i missed you"she continued. Which made my nerve gone wild.

Gosh torn between two lovely ladies.

Sasagot pa sana ko ng biglang nagstop ang car.....

"We're here! smile ka lang and everything will be alright.:)" sobrang positive niya.

Well go with the flow naman ako. "This will be the last time naman na" pag convince ko sa sarili ko.

We walk,hike,rest then repeat.. sobrang hindi ako ready for this. imagine naman kung ano ang suot ko ngayon. Gosh, if I only knew sana mas comfortable ang feeling.

While we are resting, inabot ni gail yung guitar near her. She suddenly played the guitar and startedto sing a song.

Bizarre love triangle.

Every time I think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
But there's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of the fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
well every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say

Take note..She's staring at me while singing sobrang soft and ganda ng boses niya. Which made me more confused

but still nagwworry pa din ako about laurenze.until now wala pa din siya paramdam.Sana matapos na yung araw na to para makauwi nako sa kanya.

habang malalim ang iniisip ko,bigla nalang may malambot at matamis na labi nalang ako na naramdaman sa dumampi sa lips ko.
shocks oo nga pala kakatapos lang niya kumanta.

She always do that (kissing my lips after) whenever she's singin a song for me.

Well sobrang nakatulong yung kiss na yun. she made me even more confuse.Gosh kung pwede lang sana ako magteleport pauwi ngayon ginawa ko na.

Well,tapos na ang pahinga time to walk going back. sa wakas konti nalang.

Gail hold my hand while walking