hey chat. It's ya boy... 6 years later...
better late than never right?
I reread this whole book before writing this part to feel where I left off and bro what a weird gap to pull from. Freshman year of highschool all the way to the 5th year of my job and 3 years since graduating. I can't say being an adult was everything I cracked it up to be when I was just a kid writing this, but
I can definitely say that I wouldn't trade the freedom for my childhood innocence.
Being able to roam on my time.
Being free to explore my wants, needs and self identity at my whim have been the best thing for me in the past few years. Even if i still have no idea who I am or what I want to do with my life.
I am not here to impart wisdom or act like I have grown enough to talk like I know any better. I just want to do as mentioned above.
I want to find myself.
So, in light of this, I am revisiting some of the most important parts of my adolescence and seeing if the things that made me happy a decade ago still give me any feelings of joy.
I'm lost right now, but I really think younger me had something figured out, now I have to rediscover what that is.
I hope to come back here a lot more often. Just this little bit has felt like a weight off my chest, which normally means something is right.
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in a not so serious tone... WHAT THE FUCK IS UP GANGALANGJKEASDBNFVCLIAUESDHG BFVILAUWSERBG DFLVIUKASDGBFVLIKAUSDGBFVLK
I AM TYPOING THID ON MY PC AND YOUNGER ME WOULD BE SO JEALOYUS HAHAAA SUCK IT LOSER I HAVE A PC EAT SHITTTTTTTT
HOLY SHIT GUYS I SWEAR IM STILL THE SAME LIL BRO IWAS LIKE 85000000 YEARS AGO
well im not obsessed with jacksepticeye anymore or pewds BUT MARK
MARK COULD STILL GET IT ANYDAY OF THE WEEK
BOB AND WADE? SMASH
AND HOLY SHIY I JUST FINSHED GAME OF THRONES.
TYRION? S M A S H
JON SNOW? S M A S S H
ASLSO WATCHNING THE LAST OF US
JOEL? PEDROOOOOO????//// SSSSMMMMAASSSSSSSSSSHHH FUCKL
Last but not least, my sweet boy? smash
yeah chat while i was gone ive been in several long term relationships but bro nothing even touches what i got now. deadass i am in love and it takes everything i have not to talk to everyone i know about it. when i am at my worst, when i hate the world and things just arent right. he always will be. nothing matters to me as much as he does because he is the only person who makes me matter. i exaggerate obviously, i have people who care about me but this kind of love and respect for my body and mind hasnt ever existed...\
so realistically i am doing pretty well for myself but i need to have hobbies and be in a better state of mind so uhhhhh i guess im back to writing :D
me: FRICK YEAH WE ARE SO FUCKING BACK
mark: AWh fuck when did you get back
bob: you've literally been dead for liike...6 years why are you here
me: the typing... it calls to me... AS DOES SOMETHING ELSE *Despawns into a cloud of smoke magician style*
bob: what the hell. where did she go? all that yapping to just leave again?
mark: naaaaaah frick all that. BUHHHHHBYYYEEEEEE
Maybe.
This is my cure.
