Flutter

Chapter 1- Insanity

A/N: Hi guys! So this is my first (well... fourth, but I don't have the motivation to finish/ continue them) story! I really hope you like it! This is only the first chapter, and I'll upload more often if I get some comments/feed backs/likes/votes, just so I know that you are actually enjoying the book. if you are reading this, THANK YOU SO MUCH, AND KEEP READING :)

I tapped my pen on my desk in a restless motion. Currently, I was trying to pay attention to the teacher’s assistant drone on and on about the Biomedical model of health and its weaknesses. I was in my Health lecture at the University of Toronto, finishing up my spring term of my second year. It wasn’t necessary, but I’d figured I’d get started on the other required classes earlier.

I had just turned 20 a month ago, and no thanks to my midterm, I hadn’t gotten to celebrate.

I rested my head in my left hand as my pen tapping zoned me out.

Today had been a little better than the rest of the week. Classes had gone by quickly up until now. My friends and I had spent some time together, but unlike me, they were all traveling or working.

I was in my own little world fantasizing of one of my guardian angels, Jared, and wishing that he could have been real, when I heard a loud scream coming from a man interrupted my thoughts.

My head immediately snapped up, as an ache pulsed through my heart. My body felt scorched and felt like it was being crushed at the same time.

I gasped quietly, clenching my chest and looked around the room, where everyone else was working or talking, acting like nothing was happening. As if a man hadn’t screamed.

The scream echoed in my ear, the physical pain worsening.

The T.A. concluded his speech, dismissing the class. I got up stiffly and dragged myself out of the class, my legs burning, my body feeling as if it weigh a thousand pounds.

I reached my car in a hurry, not thinking as I put the key into the ignition. The pain consumed my mind and I couldn’t think past it.

Driving sub-consciously, I barely remembered how the hell I even got home before I collapsed on my bed.

Everything hurt.

I woke up to the sight of city lights shining through my window wall. My head hurt like a bad hangover and my body felt heavy.

I got up and walked into my kitchen, reaching into my medicine drawer for some Tylenol. I took out a pill and put a pre-filled pot of water onto the stove to make myself some tea. I put in crushed cardamom, ginger and an orange pekoe tea bag, with a teaspoon of sugar, waiting for it to boil.

Looking at the clock, I saw that it was 11:11 pm. Huh. I had slept 8 hours straight.

Then, I made a wish, like I did every day, wishing for somebody to call my own. To be there for me. Like an angel-like man or a teenaged/adult boy. More specifically, I wished for my guardian angel to be by my side in solid form.

Jared. One of my guardian angels. I talked to him the most. The other two were Adrian and Liam, whom I also talked to, but they were more brotherly. Jared was special. Let’s just say that I had a liking to him. Or loving. I wasn’t exactly sure.

I poured milk into the pot just as the tea came to a boil and waited for it to boil again. I loved chai.

Pulling out a pack of chocolate chip cookies, I thought more about Jared.

“Hey Jared,” I greeted into the empty air around me. “How are you today?”

“I missed you. I had a really weird day today. I know you saw what happened, but still. Do you think it was weird?” I sighed. “I really wish you were here right now. I just want to be with you,” I explained. I know it was crazy that I was in love (potentially) with someone who was ‘imaginary’ to everyone, but to me, he was real.