Words Can't Describe How Much I Love You {Sekaiichi Hatsukoi}

Because It's You

Onodera's POV (excuses for not updating in A/N xD)

There it is again. This silence that makes me feel uncomfortable. Takano forced me to stay and eat breakfast with him. If anything, I really hate this silence. We can't bring a simple conversation, it only lasts for a few minutes. Most of the times we only end up talking about work.

It's been a year since I started working at Marukawa Emerald, since Takano and I have been living next to each other, yet we can't hold a simple conversation. Is it always going to be like this? Even if I confess to him, what will change?

"Onodera," Takano speaks, "spend the day off here."

Eh? What is he saying!? "S-sorry, but I still have work to do."

"That's an order from your boss."

"S-Stop abusing your power!" I shout, standing up, "thanks for the food, I'm leaving!"

He really pisses me off. Why should I spend the day off work with him, we can't even hold a conversation. Takano-san is an idiot, I can't stand him. Never in a million years will I spend a whole day with him.

Just as I was leaving, the touch of Takano's arms wrapping around me made me stop. "What will it take for you to spend the day with me, Ritsu?" He whispers, leaning his chin onto my shoulder.

My mind was running with mixed thoughts and emotions. What does he expect me to say? Takano called me by my first name, it makes me weak to my knees. I hate him. I hate that he's the only one who can make me feel this way.

Every butterfly in my stomach is because of him. He doesn't realize what it does to me. It only makes me fall for him more than I should, I hate myself for that. I'm a grown man and feel these things for another man...this is why I hate him. For making me feel like this.

"Onodera," Takano mutters. He unwraps his arms around me, blocking the way towards the door. "You're staying here." He simply puts.

Hah!? "I never said I would stay!" I angrily shout. "There's no way I'd stay for a whole day with you, idiot!"
He takes me by the wrist, pushing me against the wall.

"T-Takano-san! What are you--" this is unfair.

My face heats up as he slides his hand into my shirt. I close my eyes tightly. "Stop!" I shout, breathing heavily. "T-Takano-sa..."

I absolutely hate this man! I push him away, fixing myself before going back to face him. "I-I'm going back!" I exclaim, quickly heading towards the door.

Why does he have to be such an idiot!? I need a shower. As I turned the warm water on, my mind completely flushed at the thought of Takano.

Lately I've found myself thinking about him more than I should. He really crosses my mind, whatever I'm doing, I can't get him out of my thoughts.

I turn the shower off, standing there lost in thought. He's just my boss. Nothing more. I get changed and sigh to myself. If we end up dating, then it'll be hard enough to stay focused on work. It'll only mess things up and I don't want that. I don't want to disappoint Takano. I don't want to go through the same thing over and over again.

Today was supposed to be a nice, calm day for me. No work or stressing out over the little things, but it feels like the complete opposite. If I'm thinking about him, it always leaves me an a upset stage—I slip my shoes on, opening the door. Just a little walk to make these awful thoughts disappear.

"Oi."

"T-Takano-san!?" I jump in surprise. How did he know I'll be coming out!