For one day, I'd like to build a bridge
long enough to reach the skies,
to see you even for a while.
Dancing, singing with angels in paradise.I wanted to see you laugh with my own eyes,
and not just hear it in a memory muffled by cries.Was it too selfish of me to ask for just a day?
When I thought I had an eternity,
all I did was waste them away,
one by one, day after day;
foolishly unaware all would be taken from me.These smiles I wore always lied to me
for months and months, and I'm tired.
I'm tired of this drug prescribed by everybody.Feigning always failed at the end of the day;
the pills of pretend lost their potency.My every cell screamed of shame and pity.
I was that candle that refused to lit a flame
when you were in the dark;
that empty glass when you were thirsty.
I was that mirror who refused to lie,
and chose to feed your insecurities.I am selfish, then and now.
And I'm sorry,
I'm sorry my love was unfelt,
unheard, unknown, all through the years.I clawed my heart out,
and all I saw were your twinkling eyes.
I burned that candle to the ground,
shattered that useless glass;
I cursed that heartless mirror,
but all I saw were scars.Scars of your embrace,
scars that echoed your laughters,
scars of unfulfilled promises,
of wasted tick tock of clocks;
of past mistakes and countless regrets.Mirrors, mirrors always tell the truth.
They showed me the flaw in my smile;
it was I—no bridges that led to the sky;
only I, and all my life's cracks without you.That precious clock had stopped,
the one which I cannot revive, no matter what.I don't deserve even that one day,
for I was too late when I decided
to listen to your fading tick tocks.I know it now; my own clock refused to stop.
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Spilled Ink
PoetryA piece of soul in ink, and unto the paper it spilled. A collection of thoughts that rhyme from a wandering mind.