Killua Oneshots (X Reader) [ON HOLD]

World so cold

(A/n): i fell in love with this song like..
Dedicated to GoodbyeSilence Hope you enjoy!!

Sorry for those who wants fluff~ this song literally a pure angst LOLOLOLOL XD

Addition, i didn't add lyrics along the story. Instead, i highly recommend you to listen to the music while reading this.

*wipe manly sweat from eyes with tissues*

(PREPARE FOR THE FEELS MA FRIENDS! /slapped)
Notes:decided to remake it so the teaser is.. lol. Invalid.

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"I may not your first friend.. but i promise i'll always be there for you. I'll be with you forever"

"You ...promise..?"

"Yeah! I p r
o m
i
s
e "

Lie.
Lie.

Lielielielielielie.
L i e.

Wake up from my slumber, the first thing i see is a picture. Framed.

A photo of her.

I try to sit straight, but seems i got no strength left in my body.

Fall back to the mattress, lay down again. Ah right.. cellphone..

It sit still on the desk. Nah.. i turned it off so no one will call.

How long has it been?
When was the last time i eat something?
When was the last time i left this room?

.. how many days have passed without you?

Haha.

It seems i lost the count.
A quiet knock can be heard from the door
"Killua...? Do you ... Want to eat something...? I left the tray in front of the door okay? Please eat something"

I give no respond.

"(F/...n)..." I softly mumbled

It seems i gathered enough power to sit.

I look to my left. A mirror standing there. I stand up and look to the mirror that reflect whole my body from head to toe.

"I look like a mess.."

Messy hair, dark circle under my eyes, red eyes that probably because of tears, and such

It just mess.

"I really like your eye color, Killua. Its like, if i stare it too long, i'll fall into a deep abyss"

Her favorite eye color are now dull, no sign of life in it.

"Abyss... Huh..."

I fell into the abyss after i met her.

I can't get out of it.

I'm trapped.

And there's no way out of her abyss.

She's 15.
She live in a good environment.
Her family love her dearly.
She's not poor or rich.

But she threw it away to tag along with me.

She's too young to die.

I have been trained since i was a child. Yet she...

She doesn't deserve it.

"I'll be with you forever."

Lie.
Its a lie.

You left me.
Since you left me, i have lost my mind.

You left me.
To the place i can't reach.

You left me.

Left me alone in this madness.

"I'll b e wi th you fo rever. I know i can't do m uch and p robably h old yo u down. Bu t i promise i w on 't go anywh ere"

Why would you lie to me?