(Tyler's POV)
I don't know why I expected him to actually like me, they're right, they're all right. I'm unlovable I'm a mess, a failure. I always have been and I always will be.
I found myself back to where I started, getting the shit beaten out me, being late to every class, not eating, not really feeling anything, at all. Josh made me feel worth something, Josh made me feel like a human, not a blob. the nights he spent with me while I cried, the food he pretty much force fed me, the times he'd call because I didn't reply to any texts and he got worried. he carried it off and convinced me he ever gave a damn.
for now I cry alone, no one to call me, no one to worry about me. hell, I could die tomorrow, who would care? I've been picked up a lot of very bad habits, smoking being one of them, something I promised I would never do, i'm just angry and 3 quarters of the way to a full 2007 Brittany spears breakdown. lack of sleep and lack of fucks to give, you know? yeah, and swearing a lo of swearing.
but here I sit, on my bathroom floor, holding an electric razor (don't panic) about to shave my head, while finishing off a song 'car radio' it's all my thoughts rolled into one, it's a new direction for me to go in, I usually only go in 'one direction' of more slower kind of tempo.
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Won't you stay alive? (Joshler fanfiction)
Fanfiction(contains triggers: eating disorders, self harm, suicidal thoughts.) Tyler Joseph, an average 15 year old, an abusive home life, no real friends his only escape is his music, and well...No one will ever know, no one will ever care. Josh Dun is 17...