Now the whole reason for the title is not because I have been putting Justin Bieber's song on reply but because I figured after the new year, therefore having a lack of commitment to stick with something, gave me a glimpse of hope. A hope to feel happy again.
After almost a year in college, I figured that I should listen to myself for once. All my life I've been shoved words down my throat and told to take it in. Now that I'm an adult, I should know better than to listen to someone with a Master's in counseling. Go figure. It's not like the lady has been through my life. All it took for her to understand what was wrong with me was to visualize herself in my position. "Put yourself in someone else's shoes" Understand it from MY point of view they said.
Anyways, back to my point. I perfer to keep things to myself. I am an introvert at times, but only when my energy is drained from a long day of sitting through lectures. Then there are times when I am an extrovert. I enjoy meeting new people. Friends are like a recipe with different kinds of ingredients. 1 gallon of kind attitude, a pinch of hood, and 2 cups of faith in God. That's my ideal kind of friend. After high school, I decided to change for myself. Why? Because if you change during high school, people will think that you're fake. Furthermore, I am still in the process. Change is good because I began to feel a good sensation in my heart that things were going to come as a surprise and all I had to do was be patient. How long? Not long enough.
After a long lecture of I-told-you-so from my mother, I figured the woman was right. I had to stop giving into the world because for what it was worth, the world owed me nothing. But it did end up giving me regret, pain, depression, ect. Honestly, I don't know where I would be without guidence, probably lost drinking away my problems but thank god that's not were I ended up.
