Change is a given

Chapter.9

I woke up the next day and I felt like shit. I was so depressed, yes I have killed before but they were rouges and we were all in wolf form but this was completely different. I may not have had complete control but I should have found a way to get control back but now fin is dead at the hands of me as a human. I curled more into my pillow and just kept crying until I heard the door open and pan sat next to me

“you do know it wasn’t your fault right, child?” I turned to her

“but it was my fault I should have found a way to get control over her and if I did he would still be alive” she sighed and hugged me

“child, child, child you would never have gotten control over zelta. She is the strongest wolf alive and even all the other zelta’s before you couldn’t get contol over her” I sniffled and flipped on my back looking at the ceiling

“so what’s gunna happen to me, now?” she smiled at me

“nothing child. He was asking for it everybody in the shifter world knows not to mess with zelta when she’s pissed and we could all clearly see how pissed you were” I gulped and looked at her

“but something should happen to me because I killed an elder, its just not right to let me go free after that” she sighed and moved the hair from my face

“I think you having to live with this on your shoulders is enough don’t you?” I whimpered and tried to hold back the tears

“im never going to be able to forget this or forgive myself for this” she stood up pulling me with her “now get in the shower and down stairs where I’ll make your breakfast then you can go home early and we’ll deal with everything later on” with that she walked out of the room and I got in the shower and dressed in a pair of baggy sweats and a over-sized hoddie with my hair in a lopsided messy bun. I walked down stairs and in the kitchen where everybody just looked at me with grim expressions

“do you guys really have to stare at me like that?” they all murmured ‘sorry’ as I took my seat and pam gave me a bowl of her famous grits. I finished eating then went up stairs and grabbed mine and amy’s stuff then sat in the car waiting for amos and amy to come out. The whole ride back was quiet and I was trying to hold in my tears, amos noticed because he grabbed my hand and squeezed it reassuringly

“you’ll be fine honey” I smiled at him but it didn’t really reach my eyes

“I sure hope so” we pulled up outside the house and everybody was there waiting for us. When I stepped out the twins wrapped me in a hug knowing something was wrong with the way I was dressed

“what happened eva?” I sighed and pointed to amos

“ask him, I really need to be alone right now so troy please keep an eye on amy” he nodded and grabbed her from my arms as I walked away and amos filled them all in on what happened.

--Troy’s POV--

Eva finally pulled up and got out with amy. We knew something was up because eva’s eyes are usually bright and happy but now there dark and empty plus she was wearing baggy clothes, which is not eva. The twins both hugged her

“what happened eva?” she sighed and pointed at my dad

“ask him, I really need to be alone right now so troy please keep an eye on amy” I nodded and grabbed amy from her. I turned to my dad as eva walked in

“what happened? I havent seen her like this since she first arrived at our house and even the she wasn’t this bad” my dad sighed and shook her head

“zelta got pissed yesterday and fin was a retard and broke the last straw so zelta took full control and blocked eva away and well… fin’s funeral is in 2 weeks” everybody gasped but I was just stunned. No wonder eva was so sad I hate it when she’s like this. I handed amy to jake and walked upstairs to eva and walked in her room without knocking