it's complicated ➵ a.g & m.c

12

The arena was getting fuller and fuller as thousands of fans crammed into their seats. Me and Aaron still remained almost right at the front and there was girls looking at me saying 'that's her' and 'she's the one'

But there was only one thing on my mind... Michael

Unexpectedly, Calum strolled into the stage. The thousands of screams rang around my head and made me nervous, as I realised at least a third of these people want Michael as their boyfriend, they see him the way I do

Calum spoke softly into a microphone "Um, hey, I'm Calum Hood... bassist. And I just wanted to announce that were playing more songs than expected tonight, Michael added a few, so the show might run on a little. Thankyou guys" then he rushed off the stage

Suddenly, the lights lowered until the room was left in complete darkness. Then, one by one, lights got brighter and brighter and a huge countdown clock appeared on the screens in front of me

The whole arena went wild. People were crying, people were screaming and people were jumping around. I felt like I had been locked in a zoo.

I watched at the seconds ticked by on the countdown clock. I thought about Michael staring at that fan girl. Why did he look at her like that? What does she have that I don't? Does he like me? Or even love me at all?

All of these thoughts and ideas whirled through my head, leaving me unable to concentrate on what I was looking at

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The clock was counting down, and the crowd was cheering along to the countdown. Michael was about to be stood in front of me performing

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What if he doesn't like me?

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What if he likes somebody else?

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The girl in the crowd

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He doesn't feel anything for me

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I'm just another fan

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With a crush on one of the members

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I'm no one special

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I don't need him

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I'm madly in love with him

Thousands of screams filled my ears as the room fell into darkness. The echo of a drum could be heard as Ashton began to rise onto the stage, he had his hair loose, a serious complexion showed on his face, with a wooden drum stick in each hand

He was in full concentration as he played the intro. His face was focused on his drums and the way he was playing

"How are you all doing tonight!" He shouted through his mic while still playing, receiving a roar from the crowd as a response

As Ashton began to slow down his drums, the faint strum of a guitar rang through my ears, telling my brain that they're coming on stage soon

I swallowed my nerves and smiled at Ashton, appreciating every hit of the drum, as he does it so effortless, but plays so well

Then, out of no where, Calum strolled into the stage and began to mess around playing a few riffs, shortly after Luke followed and got to his mic, adjusting the strap of his guitar

I began to wonder where Michael was until I feel a tap on my shoulder from Aaron "Ariana look!" He points to a gap between the stage where I can see several security guards and Michael

"He told me to get you to go backstage" he nodded, smiling at Luke that remained on the stage

"Okay"

I crawled through the crowd, before getting to the barrier. How am I supposed to get backstage? A tall security guard wearing black shades spoke "are you Ariana?"

Before blinking a few times I replied "y-yes" and he simply smiled and picked me up, over the barrier, and onto the floor that lead to backstage

I passed many people: some carrying guitars, some on the phone and a lot barking orders at each other – but I couldn't see Michael anywhere

"Ari" I hear someone call my name, I spin around to see Michael, holding his guitar with one hand and pushing his hair back with his other

"Hey" I spoke, my mind unable to create a sentence. I was suddenly lost for words. I was speechless. He looked so beautiful and perfect

The green and red lights that danced across the staged illuminated his eyes as he peered into mine. I was lost.

"I just wanted to say to you that I've got a special song for you tonight" he spoke loudly, adjusting the earpiece in his left ear

"Are you singing it to me?" I said without thinking, the jealousy from the girl in the crowd earlier taking over

"You'll see" he smirked, and with that, he made his way to the stage. The security guards offered for me to stand here and watch but I wanted to stand with Aaron

I hopped back over the barrier and got back to Aaron. He was screaming to Luke as he introduced the first song; Money

"What happened!" Aaron excluded "all of these girls looked to jealous!"

I searched around the faces that were near me

"I-" I started, not fully sure what to say, because I couldn't answer that question. I didn't know for myself the answer. What just happened?

"Spit it out!" Aaron exclaimed in excitement

"He wanted to speak to me, before he went on stage," I lifted my head to meet Michael on stage and grinned "he said he's singing a song"

"Oh my, what! No way! Can you guys get married now, please" he said hugging me tight, before returning back into the crowd and joining in with singing and dancing, as I followed

My mind raced with questions like; is he going to sing it to me? if so, what is it about? what is the purpose? does he have a solo? does Ashton have a drum solo?

I tried to shake the questions and enjoy being in the moment, but it is really getting to me. I'm nervous